SHADOWS OF DESIRE|JK FF| S1

CH-47: SECRETS TO UNCOVER?

SOOBIN POV

I stood outside the massive, intimidating doors of Jeon Mansion, my heart heavy with guilt and uncertainty.  My head hung low as I hesitated, hand hovering over the doorbell.

I took a deep breath and pressed it.

The sound of the chime echoed inside, and my pulse quickened. I had no idea what to expect, and the weight of my mistakes pressed down on me with every passing second. I could hear the soft shuffle of footsteps behind the door, and when it opened, Toby, the ever-loyal bodyguard, stood before me. His eyes met mine, and I could see the disappointment clouding his usual warm expression.

Behind him, seated regally in her favorite chair, was Jungkook's grandmother. Her presence had always been a source of comfort, but today, as her gaze turned dark upon seeing me, I felt a sharp pang of shame.

"Soobin," Toby greeted me, his voice colder than I'd ever heard. He stepped aside, allowing me to enter, but there was no warmth in his gesture. "Come in."

I nodded, my throat dry, and stepped over the threshold. 

My eyes briefly darted to Jungkook's grandmother as I approached, but her piercing stare made me drop my gaze immediately. I could feel her disappointment, like a tangible force pushing down on me. She knew. She knew everything.

"Soobin," her voice called out, firm and unwavering.

I stopped in my tracks, forcing myself to look at her. Her wise eyes, which had once held so much affection for me, now held something else—disapproval, perhaps even anger.

"I... I came to see Jungkook and Y/N," I stammered, my voice weaker than I intended. "I need to talk to them. I... I need to make things right."

Grandma didn't say anything for a long moment, her gaze never leaving mine. The silence stretched on, making the weight of my guilt even heavier.

"They're not here," she finally said, her tone clipped and unforgiving. "And I'm not sure they'd want to see you even if they were."

Her words stung, but I deserved them. I had betrayed them both. Y/N, my sister, who had always trusted me, and Jungkook, my best friend who had stood by me despite everything. I had nearly taken away their happiness... all in the name of what? Protection? I didn't even know anymore. All I knew was that I had messed up, badly.

"I understand," I murmured, my voice barely audible. "But I need to tell them... about everything. The plans against them. I need to apologize. I... I know I've lost their trust, but I can't stand by and watch them get hurt."

Toby shifted beside me, but Grandma's gaze remained steady, unmoved by my pleas.

"They're not here," she repeated, softer this time, but still resolute. "But you've hurt them more than you realize, Soobin. You should have known better. You should have trusted them."

Her words sliced through me, each one a reminder of my failure. I swallowed hard, nodding. "I know. And I regret it. I just want the chance to fix this... to be their brother, their friend, again."

Grandma sighed, her eyes softening ever so slightly. "We shall see, Soobin. But for now, I suggest you think long and hard about what you've done and how you plan to earn their forgiveness. It won't be easy."

I nodded once more, the guilt gnawing at me from the inside. She was right—I couldn't just walk in here and expect everything to be okay again. But the desperation inside me, the fear of losing Y/N and Jungkook forever, was overwhelming. I couldn't bear the thought of them thinking I didn't care, that I wouldn't do everything in my power to make things right.