Freshman year of college, Ocean and Eve became the best of friends. Finding themselves inseparable from each other amongst their friend group of seven, the two could hardly imagine their lives without one another.
Although, what will happen when fe...
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Eve
"Fuck."
I had cursed the same word to myself under my breath, both last night and this morning.
It was careless of me to say something like that to her, let alone raise my voice, especially while she was already crying. I should have known better. So much better... And now, I feel terrible and like an idiot.
Way more than she realizes, I care deeply about Ocean. To the point where it pisses me off for her how her family be doing her sometimes, when all she does is give them her all while expecting not a single thing in return. Not even their love, even though I know that's the thing she wants the most. And it gets to me on so many levels that sometimes I just can't hold my tongue.
She doesn't deserve it. And I just wish more than anything that she could see that the way I could.
More than anything I wanted to let myself into her room last night and tell her how sorry I was. Again and again, and even still this morning. But knowing Shaun, it was no use. The way I hurt her feelings would sting just as bad this morning as it did last night, and maybe even all day today.
I knew that I needed to give her some space before trying to talk to her, but damn, it was killing me.
When I woke up this morning, she was gone, and in all of my classes my every thought consisted of her. What she was thinking and how she was feeling... Where she was and who she was talking to, and what about. I texted her, and though she didn't ignore me, it just still didn't feel the same.
I needed to see her and talk to her and hold her, and tell her that I never in a million years meant to hurt her. I needed to make sure that we were okay. And I needed to do it soon before I lost my shit.
"Hey Eve, will you have that email sent out by tonight or tomorrow morning?" Cameron asked me as we were wrapping up our robotics meeting. "It's best we get the itinerary out as soon as possible to answer any questions early on."
"I got you Cam, I was already going to."
Smiling at me, he slung his backpack on his shoulder. "This is why I love you."
"Mhm," I chuckled a little, now standing as well with the rest of the group. "We meeting back here at the same time on Wednesday y'all, don't forget."
"I'll send a group text just in case," Cameron added to the instructions I gave them. And as we all departed, he and I began walking out of the library together.
Since freshman year, Cameron and I have had this work husband and wife relationship, given how much we seemed to read each other's minds when it came to STEM. He got me and I got him, and together the two of us could practically end world hunger. Not to mention he was a pretty good friend as well.
"Hey," he glanced my way as I stared down at the message on my phone from Shaun. "You okay today? You seemed a little out of it..."
"Just stressed is all," my head shook before I locked my phone and slid it into the back pocket of my jeans. "I'm straight."
