I scratched my eyebrow while looking at my Ipad, highlighting the important details and information after. I took a peek at my phone for the nth time, checking if Red already messaged, but he didn't.
I took a deep breath and started fixing my things when I saw that it's almost nine o'clock. I need to leave now or I'll be late. My first class starts at nine so... I took my phone to send a message to Red, telling him that I can't wait for him any longer.
He didn't sleep here last night because Tita Ramona wanted him to go home, he said. He told me he's going to fetch me and take me to school, but he is still not here.
I walked out of my unit absentmindedly, thinking too deeply about Red. A week had passed, and he had been acting more strange the past few days. This isn't the first time I went to the campus by myself, because this has been happening since the day we went to our favorite restaurant.
I took a deep breath again as I went out of the elevator. As I walked out of the building, I felt someone held my arm that almost made me scream.
"Akala ko kung sino!" I caressed my chest to calm myself because I felt like my soul had left my body.
"I'm sorry. I didn't mean to scare you." a faint chuckle went out of Nathan's mouth as he stared at me, smiling. "Red asked me to take you to school with me." he said, still smiling.
"Red? Nagtext siya sa 'yo?" my eyebrows furrowed thinking about him texting Nathan, but not me. Nathan stood straight in front of me with his bag hanging onto his shoulder. He nodded his head and gestured me to walk to the parking lot, but I couldn't move.
Why isn't Red replying to me when he clearly could because he was able to text Nathan?
"Let's go?" Nathan asked cautiously. He probably noticed that something was wrong, judging by my silence. I nodded my head and smiled at him, but I'm sure that smile didn't reach my eyes.
"I'm sorry kung pinasama niya na naman ako sa 'yo. Hindi mo naman ako kailangang isabay sa school." I said in my small voice as he opened the door of his BMW. This isn't the first time I rode Nathan's car because this isn't the first time Red made me go with him. It's the third time.
"No problem, Rain." I smiled again despite not feeling like smiling because my lips were twitching, too upset at everything that's happening.
I was spacing out the whole ride. I don't know what's happening anymore. My situation with Red is so confusing now. It's like he is slowly distancing himself from me. I wanted to confront him, but I was too scared to hear anything from him. Okay na siguro 'tong ganito. Na kahit papaano ay may pinanghahawakan ako sa amin. Natatakot ako na baka pati itong meron kami ay mawala sa akin kapag kinausap ko siya.
To Aa Baby:
Hi! Sinabay ako ni Nathan papuntang campus. Saan ka na ba? Ingat ikaw, love! Mahal kita.
I blinked my eyes a few times to stop my tears from falling. My heart is aching physically. It's excruciating.
So, this is how it feels to watch and feel the love of your life slip away from you? You'll settle for anything they can give because you're afraid they will leave you if you ask for more. You'll think everything is okay, even if it's not anymore.
"Is it too much already?" I was caught off guard when Nathan suddenly spoke. I titled my head to side to look at him, which I regret because he was already looking at me pitifully. And I don't like it. I don't like it when someone looks at me that way because I don't need anyone's pity.
"What are you talking about?" I asked when he stopped his car on the side of the road. I cleared my throat before speaking but it was useless because my shaking voice gave me away. I almost backed away when he raised his hand. My eyes automatically closed when he wiped something on my cheek. A faint sob went out of my mouth when I realized that my tears betrayed me. Wala na akong maitatago pa.
