Silent Soliloquies: Inked Untouched

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To My Bebiii;

Hello po. Sinulat ko to kase di ako makatulog nung mga nakaraang araw. At ikaw yung unang pumasok sa isip ko.

Way back, hindi ko alam kung ano yung para sa akin. Alam ko din nag babasa ka ng unsent letters kaya somehow may idea ka na din. Isang taon na simula nung nag punta ako ng Cebu. Isang taon na din simula nung una mo akong nakita. I dunno exactly when you first met me pero base on my memory, it was just over a year since the first time I met you. I can still remember you talking to me, giving me answers to the test I am taking. I was hesitant to listen on what you have said since I didn't know you back then.

Fast forward, CED days then U-Week happened.

After completing the first semester, I was on verge of filing Leave of Absence to finish my reseach. Oo, desidido na talaga ako that time. Somehow tanggap ko na, kahit masakit. Alam kong alam mo yung pinagdaanan ko para matapos yun. You saw me on one of my lowest.

After convincing the teachers I needed to talk to for me to be transferred in. And even before yung desicion na i transfer in ako, nung nalaman ni Sir Ecko yun at even before pa yun, niyaya nya na ako sa xating office ng FEO. Hindi lang ako sumama umakyat kase 5th floor pa. Kaya laking pasalamat ko na kinupkop ako ni Sir sa office.

That time, di ko alam if Ma'am or Sir itatawag ko sayo. Heheheh.. Nahiya din ako sa inyo kase antagal nyo na magkakasama. Di ko rin naman akalain na maging close tayo.

I dunno when your feelings started. I dunno when mine did too. Pero as an observant kind of a person/girl, somehow may na sense na ako.

Nung dumalaw sila Leevy, sorry po kase hindi ko alam paano ako mag re-react. Even though nag start yun sa simpleng budol dahil sa dami ng issues sa atin.

Thank you po kase dumating ka sa life ko when I least expected it. As you know po, I signed a MMM (Master, Mission, Mate) commitment card during Camp in Cebu. I committed myself to God and surrender my plan to Him. Sabi ko before, if papasok man ako sa relationship gusto ko yung date to marry na. Kase nadala na ako sa past relationships ko. Kaya sinurrender ko na kay God yun, si God na ang bahala.

Then He gave me someone, and it's you. And I thank God for your life as well. Kase binigyan nya ako ng someone na willing mag stay for as long as how long. He answered a prayer that I haven't even prayed as hard for.

Sorry if hindi ko pa po masagot yung tanong pag tinatanung kung tayo na ba or what. I dunno, I wanted it to be legal as well. Tho, natatakot ako kung okay lang ba sa parents ko or what yung gantong relationship. Gusto ko pa din legal para malaya ako nakaka alis ng bahay at makagala. Kilala ka na din naman po nila since nung demo ko. Hindi naman po tayo nag mamadali.

Soon bebiii. Thank you for being the best friend and partner I never had.

xoxo,

Your Bebiii