Do you really hate me ?

Chapter 11

Minsoo grabs his bag off the floor , heading to his old room, more nervous than he's been in a long time. As he opens the door he sees his old room, a small bed, with a closet next to it, a metal desk close to the headboard, and a soft stained rug.
As he looks around, not taking any steps further, he stands in front of the door, dropping his bag on the floor as his breathing starts to get harder and harder. He plops down with his back against the wall, holding onto his bag as memories started coming in..
Back when Minsoo was 7 years old.
"Mom! Can you please help me with my homework today? Dad isn't home he can't today"
"Here you go asking me this again, can't you see I'm busy? Get out before I get drunk" she answers, holding a bottle of whiskey and a cigarette in her hand, sitting on the floor of the balcony, already drunk
"But please! The teacher will get angry again if I don't turn in any homework, please!" He says altmost shouting
"ENOUGH, UH. I can't even relax for one day? I raised you and this is how you repay me? You wanna know what it's like out here? Not being a kid and all?HUH?" She says yelling at her kid, altmost trowing the bottle she was holding
She grabs his arm, dragging him to his room
"MOM, MOM stop it hurts" he pleaded trying to get up to at least walk
"Oh now it's not all rainbows and sunshine is it?" She pushes him at the wall, trowing the bottle she was holding at him "Why are you crying huh? Cuz of a little cut? Daddy isn't here to help you now is he? Cuz he always is the best, he spent all his life out of the house, with only me raising you and now he's the best, he's the parent? You want a reason to cry? I'll give you a reason"
She squishes the cigarette top against his hand, trowing what's left "you want a real reason to cry? You wanna see what life looks like?" She yells trowing him in the closet , locking it before storming out, stumbling before making it back to the balcony, leaving kid Minsoo in the closet, in complete darkness, yelling after his mom to let him out, for hours and hours on end, without success.
A few hours later
Minsoo's mom opens the closet, still drunk, basically dragging him back to his desk
"Mom! Please...no, not again"
"Did you have fun? Did you see what life looks like? Well I thought your teacher will blame it on me if you don't have you homework" she says, trowing him against the chair he was supposed to sit in, letting him sit on the floor
"What you don't want to do homework now?" She says holding up the new bottle she found left on the balcony. "ANSWER ME! No? No asnwer? You look like you've seen hell,well you would've seen it sooner or later, get up..GET UP" she yells before picking him up by his arm again and trowing the bottle shes holding towards him, landing with it on the wall.
"You see, life was never so easy, and why should kids have it easy? Cuz you're smaller? Nah, haha. You look funny. Get up before I trow another bottle" he does as she says, dragging him to the balcony with her.
"Sit down, where's my lighter?" She asks lighting a cigarette . "Why do I never get praised for all I do? It's always you father that does everything, everyone praises him, he's the one we did everything, ALL HE DID WAS HAVE MONEY" she yells stubbing out her cigarette on his arm again, this time aggressively rubbing it on his arm
"MOM, please...dont, not again, it hurts.." he pleaded but she wouldn't listen
"Of course your father gets all the praise, and what are you crying about again? You want a reason to cry? I'll give you one again if you need it. Uh, what am I gonna do with you, your father, he gets to just go out whenever he wants, he gets to have however many women he wants, but when I ask why? What's my asnwer for being so loyal to him all of these years? That it's not that big of a deal? That I don't need a job? That I'm just a stupid woman who can't do nothing besides cooking? You think raising a kid isn't a full time job? Well you try it! You try being locked in a house all the time! You.. you never experienced this, what was your name..uh..Minsoo, hah, you just have it so easy going wherever you please, maybe I should give you a taste of how life is for me, hah, maybe then you wouldn't ask for so many things" she shouts half crying, getting up in a hurry and dragging him again, only to trow him against the bed frame
"You think it's funny right? Is that why you're crying and screaming like that? Of laughter, ha" She angrily grabs his arm tightly again, trowing him in the closet again, trowing him the unlit cigarette she was holding . " you'll need this, just the way I need this every day to hold up with everyone" she forcefully smashes the door closed, and makes sure to lock it while shouting about how ungrateful his father is.