Do you really hate me ?

Chapter 28 💗

Jaehyun walks up the stairs towards Minsoo's apartment, his mind still replaying the scene, trying to figure out if Minsoo seemed ok or if anything serious had happened. Sitting down, he tries calling Minsoo's phone a few more times but no answer, which made him even more anxious, he starts trying to work on that project they were working on before, attempting to forget what happened and calm down, he starts writing but finds himself lost in thought and writing the same sentence multiple times, or just reading the information but not actually paying attention to any of it .
About an hour passed, he puts the pen down,
Jaehyun's leg bounced almost on its own, his foot tapping out an unsteady rhythm against the floor. He barely noticed the way his fingers fidgeted with the seam of his jeans, every movement betraying a nervousness he couldn't quite shake. he couldn't let any of Minsoo's family know as he didn't have their number, and he didn't want to go home at all, he felt too nervous, time passed but he couldn't take his mind off of what happened, playing the scene over and over again, felt as if the ceiling might crumble because he didn't know if he was fine, he didn't know what to do and time seemed to barely move.
'How did this even happen? Was there any blood on the ground? I didn't see any but what if there was? No, no there wasn't, I'm just overthinking, plus both the nurses said it should be fine, it's probably not that serious....but what if it is? No, no it's not. Uh.' His head in his palms, he starts to slowly remember times he's been with him . "Now that I think about it, we've changed a lot I think.  Mean just, idk, two years ago? I hated him with my whole heart, I hated how he studied so much, probably because I didn't study at all. But now I just can't feel that hatred I had, it just doesn't click. Actually, we've been hanging out all the time until now, but never really clarified what this was, I mean, he hated me as much as I hated him, but now it doesn't feel like that at all. I think we're , friends? I don't know, yeah probably, I mean makes sense.' He chuckles. 'I remember when we went to the amusement park, but spent most of the time in that abandoned house, ha, it's pretty funny when you think back on it. I still remember the look on his face when I finally found him again, well, only got lost for a few seconds, but still, tho why was his face like...' his face gets redder as he suddenly remembers even more moments Minsoo was flustered around him . 'Oh, now I remember that time we went to the arcade' smiling slightly,he picks up his house keys, looking at the keychain Minsoo gave him that day he still kept 'I don't know why I still kept it, but it's cute, tho I wonder if that scratch leaved a scar, I don't think so tho, it didn't seem so bad... what if he got hurt when the car hit him and it won't recover as fast?' His mind starts racing again, heart following along as his leg starts tapping the floor again and all kinds of "what if"s spiral through his mind, wanting to just get up and go check the hospital again, pausing and sitting back down knowing he couldn't see him yet either way, he starts to slowly question why he's feeling this way, why he's so nervous and anxious even though the nurses told him it wasn't so bad, along with those thoughts he starts to question why he feels that way around him, why he went from hating him so bad, to wanting to spend most of the time with him. His heart pounding louder and his face getting redder but this time not only of worry.    'Now that I think about it, why am I so worried about this? It's probably nothing anyway, I mean, when Ryung got that wrist sprain from football practice i wasn't this worried, not even half as worried...' Sighing he leans his back on the back of the couch 'I just want him here....' He pauses  'wait...WHAT?' Staring at the table in front of him, eyes wide as he slowly raises his hand to cover his mouth slightly .  'If I think about it, all this time.....I mean...,I've  always been like that around him...but never with any other friends' his hearts starts pounding louder as he remembers more times he's felt like that around him, his face getting redder too remembering who made him feel like that.
He stares blankly at the table in front of him for a good few minutes, trying to deny that he finally realised this, looking for excuses only for them to end up just proving the truth he was running away from to begin with, he does like him. 'Oh my god. I think ... I lo-.....like him....' He doesnt move, a slight smile appearing on his face as he goes back on all his memories with him, finally noticing and realising how much he actually liked him to begin with. Few minutes pass by, of him trying to calm down and focus on the project, which he clearly couldn't at all, a few moments here and there of him either panicking a bit about the accident, then remembering what he just realised, getting all red again and his heart pounding, and him trying to calm down again before repeating it all again and getting a bit overwhelmed with all of that has happened today, feeling both shocked and amazed, but also worried, not knowing what to even focus on. He hears the front door open as he tries to figure it all out, making him flinch as it caught him off guard. Quickly seeing Minsoo's face at the door, he watches shocked, almost in disbelief, feeling very relieved to see he's fine, but also very surprised as he wasn't expecting him to walk all the way home, at most he'd expect to get a call from a nurse or Minsoo himself to come pick him up.
Minsoo puts his house keys down next to the door after closing it, standing in front of the door not really knowing how to explain it all to jaehyun, thinking he didn't know.
"Hey, so, long story, sorry I've been missing for like, 5 hours or however long it was, I see it's already dark, so uh, I don't know how to explain but a car crossed the red light, and it kinda hit me, sorry you had to wait, it's no big deal t—" he doesn't get to finish his sentence, as jaehyun immediately jumps to hug him.
"You scared the shit outta me" he says with a soft voice and a small chuckle ,his face burried in Minsoo's shoulder as Minsoo hugs him back.
"Whoa, are you ok? Don't worry about it Alr? It's really nothing" He replies hugging him tighter, a soft smile appearing on his face, feeling his face getting warmer too. Neither of them let go for a few moments, just jaehyun finally feeling relieved to know he's fine, and Minsoo trying to calm down to not ruin the moment.
Jaehyun let's go, slowly putting his hands on each side of Minsoo's head gently, with barely noticeable watery eyes and without thinking twice, he impulsively kisses him, a quick, small kiss, feeling his heart almost beating out his chest, and a tingling sensation throughout his whole body, he pulls back, realising what he had just done.
"...I-im sorry" he says a bit scared Minsoo's gonna despise him now, taking a step back
Minsoo's eyes widen, his hand covering his lips slightly, then looks up. "But...I didn't mind..." he says ,almost whispering, not giving it much thought, as he kinda leans on the door.
Jaehyun blinks, the words echoing through his head, feeling it all at once, his words coming out quieter than expected. "You didn't?...."
Minsoo shakes his head, a shy smile forming on his lips. "No...i-i think I liked it..." he says taking a slow step closer, both of them staring at each other, neither saying a word for a moment, you could almost heart their heart beats cuz of how loud they were. Jaehyun gives in and kisses him, quickly pulling away again, feeling a shock throughout his whole body, he looks him in the eyes seeing for only a few seconds how Minsoo's eyes seemed to turn a bit desperate before he kisses him back, feeling shivers down his spine and Minsoo's arms forming a necklace around his neck, feeling his face turn warmer and warmer, he takes a few moments before he remembers how Minsoo just came back from the hospital.
"Oh my god wait, are you ok? You just came back from the hospital? Are you hurt anywhere?" He says suddenly, breaking the kiss, turning back to being worried.
Minsoo starts laughing ,covering his face with his palm. "You're asking that now?" He asks still chuckling.
"Oh, yeah, sorry, seriously though, did you get hurt anywhere? I'll make you some tea, sit down" he says with a slight smile.
Still kinda shocked at what just happened, Minsoo hugs him again, burring his head in his shoulder. "I'm ok, seriously, just a bit tired, it wasn't a big deal at all, I just blacked out a bit, I promise I'm ok" His gaze softened, still holding him tight as jaehyun hugs him back. "Alright, let's go to sleep, it's late, and I'm sure you're tired, actually, you better be, cuz I was worried all day and now I'm tired too." He says with a soft laugh as Minsoo finally let's go. They both go to sleep, jaehyuns arms wrapped around Minsoo, Minsoo's head rested against jaehyuns chest, hearing every heartbeat increse whenever he hugged him tighter, leaving the rest of the talking for tomorrow.