Love at Last Sight (18+)

Chapter - 38

Akshath's POV

I think I am a jackass. Yes, that's right I am a fucking jackass. What the fuck is wrong with me?

It's been 4 fucking months since the red room session and I am still high on her. That day a feeling stirred up in my heart. The girl trusted me with her whole being because no one would allow to look at their bodies in such an intimate way.

I became a fucking p*ssy and a shit head!! I have been trying to tell her the 3 magical words but every fucking time I become a stuttering mess. May be a little amount of fear laced my heart with what if? "What if she rejected me?" Where the fuck will I go if she doesn't want me?

I have been in a loop since 4 fucking months now. I took her on various dates. We went for movies, malls, shopping, picnic, hiking and fucking flower picking as well. Every time when I thought, this is the right time to tell her those 3 magical words I would piss myself and stutter. I know that she is waiting for me to tell those words but here I am drinking alcohol on terrace like a fucking asshole.

I don't know if people call it an addiction, love,madness or obsession but I can't even go 26.3 hrs without her. And yes, I fucking counted. That's the longest I have ever been away from her in these past months. And I can't go fucking 13.9 sec without thinking about her. And yes, I counted that as well. If she goes back home during the next semester break, I think I am gonna work from Mumbai. That's how dependent I am on her. She is the bane of my fucking existence.

I decided that this week, I am gonna plan a proposal. I can piss my pants later but this is fucking important as that feeling is stirring up a deepshit inside my body making me incapable of breathing.

Today is Friday. This whole week I have been googling about the proposal ideas. She is not someone who likes anything grand and she basically hates if she is the center of attention so I thought a decent private proposal would be good enough to impress her and I should not go overboard.

Tomorrow is Saturday, it's better I confess my feelings tomorrow night. If I postpone it any further I think I am not even gonna have that 2 to 3 hrs of sleep for the entire weekend.

I started to formulate a plan in my head on how I would do all the arrangements. By the time we were done with our classes, I drove Sanjana to the dorms and asked if she could come over and stay the weekend with me.

"Okay, I have to pack my bag. Will you wait for me downstairs?", she asked. Of course I will. "Sure baby, make it quick", I said kissing her cheek and she went off the car blushing.

These 4 months are pure bliss. We are still virgins. Yes, that's right we have done lot of wild romance together but we never had sex. We have seen each other naked a lot of times and done a lot of stuff too but I didn't want to rush myself and her into sex. That's why I never asked her about it and considering her shy personality she would simply die of embarrassment before even asking for sex.

After few minutes I heard a knock on my car door. She was quick as she only had to pack her clothes because I ordered all her skincare items online so that she could use them whenever she visits me and I also use them secretly. We soon drove off to my house.

I started to cook food and she started baking my favorite cupcakes and cookies.

She has been doing that ever since she found out I was hungry when I attended a business meeting and did not have anything to eat at the last minute. So she bakes my favorites, pack it and place them in my car so that whenever I am in car or felt hungry, I would have something to eat that is within my reach and trust me I have been eating quite a lot of those baked goods since the past 4 months.