Mafia Principessa

Chapter 21

Isabella's pov

I stood beside the doorway of her room and watched as Andrea tried to calm Zhuri. She had brought her to her bedroom because it was 3 am, everyone was asleep and Zhuri was crying her eyes out. I was seeing a different side of her, a gentle and nurturing side. I'm not proud to say that I did not think she had that side in her. My daughter never ceases to surprise me.
I'm brought back to reality when I hear Andrea's voice.

" She is really pretty, the spawn I mean." Andrea says as she gently brushes Zhuri's hair in attempts to make her fall asleep. She is surprisingly really great with babies. I thought she wouldn't even know how to get her to go back to sleep. She then stopped what she was doing, walked up to me and gave me Zhuri.

" You didn't have to stop on my account. I love seeing this side of you, it shows you are a woman of many multitudes. It also shows that the family is warming up that cold heart of yours, no offence," I emphasise that it is coming from a good place because it's Andrea and with Andrea you never know, you just have to thread carefully.

" None taken. Mama......shall I tell you something?" she asks still not taking her eyes off Zhuri who is now lightly sucking her finger in my arms. Wait a minute did I hear her well did she just call me Mama? My throat felt like it had been set alight. Tears welled up in my eyes, a tear drops and I quickly wiped it away. She finally said it. She has accepted me as her mother. I feel a lump on my throat as I try to contain the excitement and the tears building up. I've waited so long to hear her say those four letters to me. She just warmed my heart and gave me so much joy.

" Please say it again," I beg as I raised my head to look up to her. She gives me a confused look and frowns as she tries to figure out what I mean until it dawns on her. She rolled her eyes and pressed her lips together to try and hide the smile that shows on her face which ends up displaying her dimples.

" I have been calling you like that in my head for a while so what, I blurted it out. Don't make it weird. We are both adults you do not have so get all mushy and emotional about this. You are my mother so why not just call you Mama." she says trying to brush this moment off. I'll respect her wishes, I won't make it weird for her. Now my head is somewhere else. What did she want to tell me? I signalled her to hold the thought while I go put Zhuri back in her crib. When I come back I find her in the exact spot I left her. I take her hand and seat her next to me on her bed and hope that she goes on and tells me what she wanted to say before I interrupted her.

" I had a son, he looked a lot like Nico. That's the reason I was cold to him. I just didn't know how to react when I saw that he is the replica of Leonidas.The other morning I was grieving. It was my son's birthday and also the day he died. I just wanted you to know." She says as if she doesn't care. A son, she lost a son. That day I didn't pay much attention to her because I thought she was just having a bad day or feeling overwhelmed. How many things happened to her while she was away from us.

"I'm really sorry amore mio. No parent should ever go through the pain of losing a child trust me I know that pain firsthand." I say trying to comfort her. I know hearing how sorry I am about what beffell her is the last thing she wants to hear right now but I just had to say it, I meant it.

" He was decapitated right before my eyes. I couldn't do anything about it because I was chained to the wall and all I could do was plead and listen to his horrified screams. I watched as the life left his body and his beautiful green eyes froze as he turned cold and pale. For the past few days there has been a voice in my head whispering things to me. It tells I could have a better life. A life with him, Leo and I could hold him once more. It constantly whispers that I am never going to win. It makes me question why I'm still alive. Why do I put myself through all of this, it is a never ending cycle and each time I'm bound to lose. I lose everything I have, everything I care about. I've lost too much in my life so much so that I would rather have nothing and no one," she said with a blank look on her face as if everything was replaying in her head as she mentioned it.

" Two months ago I thought I was killing one of the men who murdered my son. I was almost sure it was him but clearly I was wrong. I am disturbed in everyway you can think of. I cannot be trusted nor can I be loved. I'm not who you think I am. You can let Allesandro know what I told you. I know you were going to tell him either way but I want him to know, tell him I told you to," she says as I catch the cue. The conversation was over and she wanted to be alone. She trusts us, with her secrets and with her feelings. She is allowing us to try and save her, she wants to be saved she just doesn't know how to ask for help accordingly. This was a cry for help and we will step up.