Living With The Boss

Chapter 21

Jess POV

I cannot believe how stupid I could've been to believe that a guy like Daniel would be content to go from getting some action every night to getting none at all. I should have known that I was setting myself up for failure. I mean how could I have believed that I have that important to him that he would be willing to wait for me.

When in reality he waited for our very first fight to go out and get acquainted with some other girl's lips, how could I have fooled myself by this misconception.

I sure as hell am not going to allow him to just waltz back to me and smooth talk his way out of this. If there is one thing people need to know about me, then it is that you can do anything to make me mad and apologize and I'd forgive you, but I do not and will not allow myself to be lied to and walked all over by a man, I refuse to take someone back after cheating.

I believe in second chances but to me, If you cheated once, it's because I'm not the true keeper of your heart and there is no guarantee that you wouldn't do it again.
And since your word can't be my guarantee, I'd rather not stick around to find out just how true my theory on the matter really is,
Clearly this is an end to the relationship that Daniel and I have had.

I think this is a sign that it was bad timing and that we rushed into this. I made the hasty decision to then confirm my place at the college furthest from home even though my plan was to stay close by but I'm sure my mom can manage while I'm studying elsewhere and I honestly don't think I can be close to Daniel and not have a meltdown every time I saw him.

This is my first relationship and I don't know how the whole ex thing goes but I'm sure it will be a lot better for me if he and I were not breathing the same air.

I am planning on telling mom about this tomorrow and then pack up to go to Browns domes. I'll just live in one of them and then get a job to help with my monthly spending fees and also to send mom some.

I will be an ocean away from my family for five years. It's okay though, I need some independence and I need to see so new faces, places and experience new things.

In fact, why not start packing right now, so that I don't laz around crying my eyes out because my supposedly loving ex boyfriend was caught lip locking another girl last night.

I need to also phone Sam and tell her about my traveling arrangement and that I'll be studying medicine with her and will probably be gone when her baby arrives. I did so not plan on this happening but I have to get away and I can always come home to visit.

I heard a knock on the door and thinking that it might be Sam, I rushed to open it, I cannot have my pregnant best friend standing out in the cold, I opened the door and sucked in a breath when I saw Daniel, I rushed to close the door again but he shoved his foot in the way.

Pushing it open again. "Please let me explain. It is not what it looked like." I somehow never understood why those are the first words when someone is caught cheating
"The famous last words of a cheater. Tell me? Exactly what is it that you think I saw, cause clearly you were standing beside me when I caught my boyfriend lip locking another girl the same night we happened to have had an argument." I said, I've never been one to yell and argue my lungs out and especially when I feel like i'm done with a conversation and right now I'm more than done, I'm over this damn shit. "She kissed me and I pushed her away but I don't think you saw that and then your friend slapped me."

"I am sorry to hear that you left her unsatisfied Daniel but why has it taken you so long to tell me this? You first finished up what she started before realizing you could have chased after me? I may not look like it but I don't tolerate cheating and I refuse to be with anyone who does, so we over and I won't be here much longer so you can happily move on." "What are you talking about? I just told you that I didn't kiss her back." "it doesn't really matter either way, I've decided to move to Rhode Island and finish up my studies, it will only cause more damage and pain if we stay together, this thing between us had happened at the wrong time."

I had to tell him how I felt about the situation and it's now or never, the way to pull a bandage off is to do it fast and handle all the pain at once or suffer the painful experience of ripping it off slowly.

He left shortly after that conversation and that was that, we were done and I was shattered but I refuse to let it show. I refuse to let this short, intense relationship get to me so much that I stop living.

I will get my degree and I will live the life that I want for both myself, mom and Jared, he deserves to live a life that does not lack and I will make damn sure that he gets to live that life, I'll fight tooth and nail for that boy. After all, he is my little bugger.

I just came from moms place and she took the news much better than I expected her to, she did shed a few tears which was to be expected since I basically changed my plans from staying home while going to college to leaving her and Jared. She however, did delight in me seeing the world and traveling. She said it is important for me to see different places in the world.

I finally started packing up my things but I won't be taking all of my things with me, I am actually planning on moving some things home so that mom can store it for me .

I called Sam when I was done and told her about my plans to move and also asked her if she wanted anything that belonged to me. I didn't need all the stuff that I had and she would put it to good use. She said she'll be over tomorrow to check the things that I want to give away.

I took a shower and then went to bed. I had this unnerving longing to call Daniel to find out how his day went but I couldn't do that, this was for the better, he didn't need me in his life, he had his company, his friends and I'm sure that any girl would be honored to call him theirs.

That night, I fell asleep with Daniel on my mind and it almost killed me, how could I be so stupid to have fallen this in love with him.

Moving away was a good thing, I can't bear knowing that his so close yet I can't reach out and touch him. I hate that I had to call it quits, if I wasn't under so much pressure with having to leave for college and having to decide if I wanted to move in with Daniel then I would have probably tried to work things out between Daniel and I, I would have tried to understand his point of view and worked out our differences.

The next day Sam came by and she took a few things that she could use, she had some baby emotions and cried due to the fact that I won't be here when she gives birth, or for the duration of her pregnancy, I tried to make her feel a bit better by trying to convince her that we would video every day and that she would be the first to know when I was in town.