Transmigration: Save My Chastity

[47] Talk (3)

Love.

It was such a familiar and yet foreign word. He knew the word but for him to experience it himself... to fall in love? Zhan Chen's mind blanked. He stared into the other's eyes, trying to search if the other male was joking. But, all he saw was those hot, serious gaze reflecting his own visage.

His confused self.

He loved Emperor Xian? Before Zhan Chen could say anything, the thunder loud boom shocked him.

Zhan Chen jumped in surprise, causing the small boat to sway from left to right. Panic, he tightened his hold on the boat sides.

Zhan Chen muttered, "What happened? Rain?"

Xian Long Wei who was shrouded in happiness, frowned at the sky. The weather was sunny and bright, how could it suddenly thunder? "Probably."

Heaven Emperor: "......"

Heaven Empress: "See, what did I tell you, Your Majesty?"

Xian Long Wei immediately took the paddles and began paddling to the pavilion in the middle of the lake. "We'll go to the pavilion first."

Zhan Chen nodded his head, "en."

The whole way, they didn't talk and silence stretched until it was almost uncomfortable.

The momentum that he had before the thunder was long gone and Xian Long Wei was too anxious to touch the subject again. Thinking of the feast he had prepared in the pavilion, he solemnly vowed to approach the subject after they had lunch.

Finally, they arrived and Xian Long Wei tied the rope to the wooden pillar of the pavilion. After that he climbed out of the small boat and stood at the wooden plank near the pavilion. He handed his hand, "Chen Chen, grab my hand and be careful."

Zhan Chen followed after the older male's words and slowly climbed out of the boat. He heaved a sigh after he had landed on the stable ground.

"Thank you, Wei Dage."

Holding the ger's hand, Xian Long Wei guided them to the middle of the pavilion. Not expecting anything, Zhan Chen was surprised when he saw a complete meal set with variety of desserts and tea.

He beamed in happiness. Zhan Chen turned towards the handsome young emperor, "did you prepare all of these, Wei Dage?"

"En," Xian Long Wei waited for his ger to sit first before he took the other seat. His dark, pheonix eyes watched as the ger happily eyeing the food on the table. He sighed inwardly. Indeed, his adorable wife was really easy to distract. Just put a table full of sweets and he would even forget about his husband.

He helplessly smiled at his future Empress, "eat ba. Chen Chen haven't eaten lunch yet, right?"

Zhan Chen nodded his head. Just looking at those food, his stomach already protested to be fed. Without caring about his table manner, he began eating.

There were only Wei Dage and him.

Nobody would care about his table etiquette.

Xian Long Wei also picked up his chopsticks and he was about to pick a piece of chicken when it was put in his rice bowl. He looked up in surprise.

Shy Zhan Chen, "Wei Dage should eat more. You've been busy working as the Emperor." He said as he put more meat into the Emperor's rice bowl.

Xian Long Wei's feeling right now could be related to the festive season in the empire. It was jumping and shouting to the entire world. Outwardly, his face still looked particularly calm, he smiled at the ger, "thank you, Chen Chen."

Eating the piece of chicken like it was the God's offering, Xian Long Wei was overjoyed. As norm, he didn't show it in his face as only a small smile painted on his lips.

Shadow guards: "Ah! Congratulations, Your Majesty! Our Emperor looks so happy!"

Both of them enjoyed the food, as they talked about trivial things. Tacitly, both avoided the topic in the small boat. Only after the foods on the table were finished then, Xian Long Wei decided to talk about what happened in the boat.

"Chen Chen ah," Xian Long Wei said slowly as he tried to gauge the ger's response.

Zhan Chen knew this matter couldn't be postponed. He reluctantly looked up at the handsome face of the emperor and smiled awkwardly. "Wei Dage, what's the matter?"

"About what I said in the boat," Xian Long Wei threaded carefully, "that, Wei Dage won't force you. I know that you might even doubt me, doubt your feelings... That's why, I," he sighed, feeling that it was really hard to convey his meaning. Planning a war was easier than courting his Empress.

He slowly reached out his hand and grasped those smaller hands on the table in his. His one hand easily fitted both Zhan Chen's hands in his. "That, could you consider me, as a potential husband? And not as a big brother."

Zhan Chen was nervous. He wanted to pull his hands away from the older male's grasp but after seeing the serious and hopeful look, he decided not.

It was only holding hands. They had held hands many times before this. Zhan Chen told himself that he was fine.

And as what the emperor had said, he doubted if this man had lied to him to force his feeling but seeing and hearing the sincerity... He was instead confused. How? If he really loved the emperor, then, how? How could he, a man, fall in love with another man? How did it happen?

He was so sure about his straight as a ruler orientation.

So, how could it suddenly change?

"Chen Chen."

Zhan Chen looked up at the man. "Hmm."

"It seems I shouldn't say it," Emperor Xian heaved a sigh and shook his head. "I was wrong. I am too excited and too anxious. I should let you figure out your own feelings and not to tell you like that."

"Wei Dage?" Zhan Chen said softly as he felt the hands on his moved away. Suddenly, he felt an unmistakable sense of lost.

"I shouldn't impose my own feelings on Chen Chen." Xian Long Wei smiled apologetically at the ger and stood up, "forget what did I say earlier."

He added, "let's go. Wei Dage promise to bring you out to have fun."

Zhan Chen quietly stood up and he expected the emperor would hold out his hand but he didn't. He stared at those bigger hands hanging down on both sides of Wei dage's body and felt his own hands were empty. He was too used to holding hands with the Emperor's and unexpectedly, missed the other's warmth.

So, when the Emperor showed his hand to the ger when he wanted to help him on the boat, Zhan Chen couldn't help but tightened his grasp on that bigger, warm palm.

Shadow guards: "Ah, how could it turn out like this? It was such a good atmosphere before..."

Heaven Emperor: "This coward! I have no son like him!"

Heaven Empress: "......"

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Snall Theater

Emperor Xian: Ah, were Zhen wrong? Shadow guards.

Shadow guards: Yes, Your Majesty. Your order?

Emperor Xian: Did Zhen just make it worse?

Shadow guards: ......

Emperor Xian: Speak. Zhen would not punish you.

Shadow guards: Then... Your Majesty should be overbearing and force a kiss on future Empress. Dominate him with your hot, hot, hot love.

Emperor Xian: Hmm. There are some empty positions at the east border right now. Maybe, you all want to apply for the job?

Shadow guards: QAQ