Transmigration: Save My Chastity

[48] Hopeless

It was late at night and the light inside the dragon chamber was still lit bright. Inside the dragon chamber, a lone man was sitting on a chair as he sighed in distress.

Xian Long Wei sat on the chair as he poured alcohol into a ceramic cup. Swishing the clear liquid, he frowned as he raised it up and dumped it all into his mouth.

The bitter aftertaste assaulted his taste buds as his throat and stomach warmed as the alcohol poured in.

He poured another cup of alcohol and drank it.

Putting the cup on the table, his eyebrows scrunched together as he gripped the cup tightly.

Why? Why was it so hard? Making a person fall in love with you was even difficult than planning a war strategy.

Xian Long Wei reminded what had happened to his courting today. It was going fine until he told Chen Chen about his feelings.

Now, he regretted that he told that to the ger. But in his excitement of knowing that perhaps his feeling were returned, he couldn't help himself from speaking about it.

Perhaps, he shouldn't be too impatient.

He should've just kept silent and let Zhan Chen realise what his feelings were. He shouldn't interfere. Maybe, Zhan Chen would think that he tried to mess with his feelings. Tried to influence his feelings.

Now, Zhan Chen might not think whatever he felt for him was genuine.

Emperor Xian Long Wei poured another cup of alcohol and downed it in one shot.

It was a long night for him as he mulled over his feelings.

Shadow guards: "...this is the first time His Majesty looks so insecure and hopeless."

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A week passed by in a flash and it had been like forever for Zhan Chen. In this week, he had been listless and dazed. He didn't eat much and when studying he would not hear what the teachers had taught.

The Bai couple was worried of course but when they asked their child, the young ger just shook his head.

If before Zhan Chen would still listen to a lesson while playing but now, it worsened. He simply looked ahead as he dazed through the class. Only when the teacher shouted his name would he blinked in surprise.

"...Chen."

"......"

"Zhan Chen."

"......"

"Bai Zhan Chen!"

Zhan Chen jumped in his seat in surprise. He immediately stood up, "yes, teacher?"

The middle aged teacher shook his head and stood as he patted the young ger's head softly. "The lesson is done for today." He added, "Teacher don't know what trouble you but try to talk it out with someone. Maybe, it could help."

Zhan Chen nodded his head as he watched his teacher left the study room. He again looked out of the window and saw it was almost the time for lunch. Standing up, he walked to the main courtyard where the family dining room was. He greeted several of this manor servants and smiled when he saw the housekeeper.

"Young Master," the housekeeper bowed and smiled, "the master has just arrived at the dining room."

Zhan Chen smiled and thanked the housekeeper. It was rare for his father to be at home during lunch except for his offdays. So, without waiting, he walked faster to the dining room and opened the door.

"Father, you're back," Zhan Chen greeted his father softly as he sat on his seat. He glanced at his mother who seated at the right side of his father. "Did you cook this mother?"

Bai Xiu Ying smiled, his pretty eyes crinkled at the edge, "It's all Xiao Chen's favourites."

Zhan Chen quietly thanked his mother.

General Bai smiled at his ger son, "How's Xiao Chen's study?"

"It's the usual," Zhan Chen said with a low, unspirited voice.

Both the Bai couple stared at their only child who looked listless and in a daze. Even when Bai Xiu Ying cooked him his favourites food and pastries, he wasn't excited. It was so unlike himself.

"Here, Xiao Chen ah. Mother has made your favourite pastry." Bai Xiu Ying said this as he put a plate of beautifully crafted pink cherry blossom dessert.

Zhan Chen looked at the sweets and didn't show his usual eagerness for sweets, "thank you, mother."

Seeing that even food couldn't gauge their dear child's response, Bai Jian Yu and Bai Xiu Ying looked at each other in worries.

Before the two could say anything, Zhan Chen looked up from his bowl nervously.

"Xiao Chen?" It was Bai Jian Yu's concern voice.

Baai Xiu Ying coaxed softly, "What is it, dear?"

Gripping his chopsticks tightly in his hand, he muttered very softly as he looked down on the table. "Can I see grandfather?" he paused and added, "I miss him."

Zhan Chen was actually very confused of his own feelings. He knew he liked the young emperor but to what extent... He didn't know. He wanted to ask someone but he didn't know many people here. The only ones he closed were the Bai couple, grandfather, Ming Ge and Wei Dage.

It was impossible to ask his parents as Bai Jian Yu would surely rage upon hearing the Emperor's name while Bai Xiu Ying would be ecstatic and might giving imbalanced advice that tended towards the young emperor.

As for Zhang Changming, it was impossible, the man was now in the military training camp. He wasn't sure when he would get a vacation.

That left Emperor Xian and his grandfather.

That former wasn't an option. There was no way to discuss about this with the person involved.

And that left the last person. Li Huizhong. His grandfather. His grandfather was quite fond of him and he also thought good about the young emperor. Being the prime minister and older male, Zhan Chen decided that his grandfather would be the wisest person he could talk to.

"Alright, when are you going to see your grandfather?" Bai Xiu Ying broke Zhan Chen's thought.

Zhan Chen looked up from his bowl and gave a thankful smile. His small face brightened with his sweet smile.

"Could I see gandfather tomorrow?" Zhan Chen said and mused, "or is grandfather busy?" After all, Li Huizhong was not an ordinary person. He was the Prime Minister of the Xian Dynasty.

Bai Jian Yu softened his voice and chuckled. "Father will go to the palace today and meet with your grandfather. I will tell him his grandchild is missing him."

Zhan Chen finally felt his day was better. Glancing at the delicious looking desserts made by Bai Xiu Ying, he grinned and began to stuff his face with it.

The Bai couple watched their ger son back to his normal self; sighing inwardly in relief. Smiling, they continued to eat as they pick foods for the adorable ger.

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Small Theatre

Emperor Xian: My dear love, please marry me! This Dage is very rich and can buy you anything you want!

Xiao Chen: ...Wei Dage, what happen to you?

Shadow guards: T-This... Did His Majesty get drunk?