Broken but not shattered

Chapter 18

Siobhan's POV

Marjorie and Charlotte Went upstairs to talk to Carly. A few seconds later, Jamie came running down the stairs, saying that Charlotte had sent him down. Jamie jumped up on Viv's lap, telling her all about the book Carly had read to him. Everyone else started breaking off and having their own conversation. It all was becoming overwhelming. I leaned over and whispered in Viv's ear, "I'm going to go outside for a minute," 

"Ok, is everything alright?" she asked, clearly concerned.

"Yes, everything is fine. I just need some air," I said, making my way outside.

Sitting on the front steps of Marjorie's house, I kept thinking back to where I was not even two months ago. I was still with Roger, scared of the day that he would kill me, but even more scared that he wouldn't. Now, I'm in a house full of people who have proven time and time again that they care about me, and I care about them. So why is it that I can't let myself feel safe? I constantly feel like there is another shoe that's about to come down and crush me. 

I keep looking into the future. Seeing everything that could be: My friends being happy, our family growing, me and Viv moving forward in our relationship, Viv introducing me to Jamie officially, but I feel like at any moment, it's going to be torn away from me. 

How right was I the next thing I knew, two guys in hoods came out of nowhere, dragged me to a van, and threw me in, taking my phone out of my pocket and smashing it on the ground. There was another guy in the driver's seat, and as the other two bound and gaged me, the other drove away.

Thirty minutes later, the van came to a stop, and the back doors opened to reveal Roger with a sick smirk on his face. "What did I tell you? You belong to me," he said before motioning to the guys. The same two guys that grabbed me took me out of the van and into a room, where they tied me to a chair, and one of them took the gag out of my mouth.

"Roger, please do whatever you are going to do to me, but please leave everyone else out of it," I begged. I knew this would happen, and I know how this ends. With me in a body bag, but they don't deserve that, Vivian doesn't deserve that.

"And why would I do that? They all betrayed me, and they all have to pay. As soon as I'm done with you, I'm going after them. Starting with that whore of yours and her son," he said, laughing like it was just some joke to him. Hearing him say that about Viv, I couldn't help but sob. 

"Don't tell me you actually cared for the bitch," he said with disgust written on his face. I didn't say anything. There was nothing I could say. There was reasoning with a monster.

"Don't ignore me, you bicth," he yelled and slapped me across the face, busting my lip. I remained silent. He slapped me again, causing me to groan in pain. I knew that future was too good to be true.

Vivan's POV

"She's gone. He has her," I heard Carly scream, and I felt my whole world stop. Jamie was still on my lap, trying to get my attention. I looked down at him, and he asked, "Where did Bon Bon go?" I couldn't hold it together anymore and just hugged him tightly, crying. 

"Mommy?" I heard him ask. I try to pull myself together and look at him.

"I don't know, my sweet boy, but we will find her. Now go with Carly upstairs it's time for bed." I said, barely holding back my tears. I could see he wanted to fight me on it but gave in and went with Carly. As soon as he was out of earshot, I lost it.

"I can't go through this again. Last time, it nearly killed me. I can't lose her," I sobbed out, putting my head in my hands. I felt someone put their arms around me.