The Path of Longing 🔞 (BINI MACOLET)

CHAPTER 27: Downfall

Malory

I spent 2 years healing in Selena's family rest house. Selena never left my side. Lahat ginagawa niya para ma-distract ako from crying almost everyday. She even lent me her second phone para raw hindi ako ma-contact ni Mason. She even attempted to come in here probably because Jaziel told her where I was. 

In those years, I'll always end up crying every night. I was hurt from what happened but what pains me more was that I still long for Mason's presence. I crave for her tight embrace and touches that once ignited my soul. Ilang beses kong sinubukan na labasin siya tuwing nagmamakaawa siyang papasukin ng guard but I was never ready to face her. Nakakatanggap ako ng balita from Jaziel that Mason's life went downhill. Hindi na ito nakakapag-focus sa trabaho at halos gabi-gabing lasing sa penthouse niya. I can't help but to feel guilty at sumasagi sa isip ko na kausapin na siya. The shares on her company is declining dahil halos hindi na rin niya ito inaasikaso. 

I decided to go back sa Manila today. Not minding if we cross paths. Palagay ko naman ay ayos na ko. I couldn't figure it out yet kung wala na kong nararamdaman kay Mason. But I guess I'm ready to face her once again. 

Whenever I think of Mason, I don't feel the pain anymore. It is like I got used to it already and have accepted her relationship with Ainsley. It reminded me na kahit may kaunti pa akong nararamdaman kay Mason ay dapat ko na itong hindi pansinin. I needed to disregard my feelings para sa anak nilang dalawa. I don't want to ruin any family. Lalo na kung doon na masaya si Mason.

When I opened to Selena about my plans to come back in Manila, she hesitated with my decision but later on agreed telling me that I should it. After all, matagal-tagal na rin naman. 

Once I reached the condominium that Mason bought before, agad akong pumasok at pareho parin ang pagkakaayos nito 2 years ago. I came back in here to collect some of my stuff at para lumipat muna sa condo ni Selena. 

I collected my things one by one, putting it on a large box. I can't help but to reminisce on all the things that Mason and I shared in this room. Those sunday mornings, cooking sessions, and even the moments where we made love. I can suddenly feel my heart aching as my eyes landed on one of the drawers where I kept every flower that Mason gave me. It was all withered but I had its petals kept in one container. 

I began to cry once again. I can't believe I had the audacity to make myself believe that I was already fine. That I can take the risk of seeing her again. I hugged the container, tightly holding on to Mason's presence through the withered petals. 


Mason

"I'm already here. Have you guys landed already?" 

"Yes. We're on our way sa mall. Let's meet nalang sa department store. We ran out of diapers eh we need to get a few muna bago tayo makapag-ikot ikot." 

"Alright" I answered briefly and quickly ended the call. I decided to roam around dahil mukhang matagal pa bago makakarating sila Ainsley. I came across a photobooth which reminded me of Malory. She loved doing these things. I can still remember her forcing me to take pictures in here dahil ididikit niya raw sa ref niya. 

Everything reminds me of her. Ganon parin ang pagmamahal ko sa kaniya. I did everything I can to reach her and to explain pero ni-isang beses ay hindi niya ako pinayagan. Of course, I felt hurt. But I understand, especially dahil hindi niya naman alam ang dahilan kung bakit nangyari lahat. Alam kong kung nasaktan ako nang sobra ay triple ang sakit na naramdaman niya dahil niloko ko siya. 

My life went downhill. Nang mawala si Malory sa tabi ko ay kasabay din nang pagkawala ng interest ko sa kahit na anong bagay. Every time I come at work, parang napipilitan nalang ako because I know I still have a lot of responsibilities. I wasn't sincere about it anymore dahil lahat ng atensyon ko ay nakatuon sa pag-iisip kung paano ako babalikan ni Malory. Kung ano pa ang mga kailangan kong gawin para makapagpaliwanag. 

I started drinking more but most often at my penthouse lang. I don't enjoy anyone's presence anymore. My friends we're on my side pero dahil may sari-sarili silang responsibility, I was often isolated on my penthouse. Alam kong unti-unti nang bumabagsak ang kumpanya ko. I don't have the will to save it. So Gabrielle interfered and handle the company dahil alam niyang hirap na hirap na ako. With everything scattered on my plate caused by Malory's disappearance. Pilit niya akong tinataboy palayo which made me suffer even more. 

I blankly stared at the photobooth machine until my phone rang. After the call, I quickly went to the restaurant where I'll meet Maverick, Ainsley and their baby. 



AUTHOR'S NOTE: 
Short update ulit! Ayoko nang masaktan kayo so I guess you can calm your hearts already HAHAHAHA the next chapter will narrate what actually happened between Mason, Maverick, and Ainsley.