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Ship

I've realized that
I've lost the war
And the sky turned black
You and me
Ended even before
We could start
And what were the odds?
Of making anything out of this mess you made out of me?
But now i know
You and me were never a thing to begin with
And i was just dreaming awake
Chasing the days
Were you used to play with my head
Making me think i could be yours
But that was never a possible out come
It was all a game, where you won, checkmate
I was just singing a song
Without music
Dancing a baltz
Without public
A duet without a partner
Because the whole time i was alone
You were never really there
You abandoned the ship
Right before it sailed
And you left me there
You left me guessing
What did i do wrong
Was something i said
Was i being too honest
Did i pour too much love into an empty cup?
Like, you were so dishonest
You made me believe there could be the two of us
But we turned to ash
You left me there
Head full of doubts
"Why did he do that?"
I don't want the answer anymore
The ship has sailed now, you left me there
And now i realize
I'm better off without you
You were never meant to stay with me
Oh the ghost of the possibility
Haunted me for more than i would like to admit
But now i am ready
For something steady
And someone reliable
Who won't sell his soul
To the God of "well i don't know"
Maybe it's too soon and i'm not ready, you know?"
Maybe i wasn't your ship
And you weren't my mate
And this thing went exactly how it supposed to
And now i'm okay
With living life on my own
Without thinking what would it be like if you be here with me
I don't have any doubts
I'm better off alone
You were never meant to be in the ship with me
I'll continue the road without wishing
At some point you hop on and be with me
You won't come, now i know
I have to do this journey alone.