Things between me and Lan have gotten better. Slowly, we're going back to our normal routine doing the stuff we always do but there is something different this time. Nagiging showy ako with my feelings towards him at surprisingly Lan just let me. Hindi siya nagre react as long as I don’t cross to much line, he doesn’t seem to mind.
I can hug him more freely now, gaya ngayon ako yung nakahiga sa lap niya, instead of our cat. I feel this small sense of victory kasi dati si Shinzui lang ang allowed na gawin ito. But now, nagagawa ko na rin. Habang nakahiga, I just casually scrolling through my social media, checking if may bagong issue na naman involving me dahil sa pagpunta ko ng bar last time. Swerte, dahil wala.
It’s quiet and peaceful. Lan's just there not saying much, but his presence feels comforting. I glance up at him and for a second, I can’t help but smile. sobrang gwapo pero ang nonchalant ng expression
On a whim, I turn on my phone camera and sneakily snap a picture of Lan. He doesn’t even notice, or maybe he does pero wala siyang paki. His sharp features, the way he is just staring in his phone, makes the photo feel like something out of an art gallery. I can’t help but admire him deeply, mysterious guy na magiging akin.
natatawa nalang ako sa nasa isip ko, parang kailan lang I battled my self that I can't swing that way but now I silently declare in myself that Lan will be mine, as long as he will let me. walang mamimilit pero susuyuin para maging akin. I chuckled
“perfect” I mumble to myself with a grin looking at the photo.
For now, that is more than enough. As I lie there, resting comfortably on his lap, the world feels smaller, quieter. It's rare for me to stay still this long, but being with Lan has a strange way of grounding me. I scroll a bit more, checking random stories on my feed, then close my phone with a sigh.
I glance up at Lan again. He's still looking in his phone, his hand resting gently on my side. Even though he’s not the type to say much, his presence says everything. His quiet strength is something I’ve always admired, but today, it feels different. More personal.
“labas tayo mamaya?” I suggest, breaking the silence, trying to read his mood.
He blinks, turning his attention back to me, his expression is neutral as always. “Later,” he replies, his tone soft but firm.
I nod, content with that. For a moment, I just close my eyes and breathe. The soft hum of the air conditioner, the faint sounds from outside—everything feels... right. I let my thoughts drift, remembering the times when things between us weren’t this easy. There was a point when we couldn’t even sit together without tension hanging over us like a storm cloud. But now, it feels like we’re figuring it out, slowly but surely.
I shift a little in his lap, letting out a contented sigh and Shinzui jumps up beside us, finally settling down after sulking in the corner. Lan hand absentmindedly pets her, while I watch the scene so ordinary yet perfect.
“Alam mo, Lan,” I whisper again, this time more playful, “ I think I'm more suitable in this position rather than Shinzui." i said na tinutukoy ang paghiga ko sa lap nya.
He smirks—barely noticeable, but it’s there. “ mmmm, you are clingy. like a pet,” he said with a hint of teasing in his tone.
I laugh softly, shaking my head. " I can be a pet as long as you are the one who owned me." I hear him chuckled and with that, I close my eyes again, content to just stay here, in this calm quiet moment with him.
For now, this is more than enough. We have time in the world to express and figuring this out in our own way and honestly, being in his lap like this it feels like the most natural thing in the world.
