A MAN TO HEAL

chapter five

A week later

POV Jimin

" What? " I say, flabbergasted

" What? " Emily replies, putting on her blazer , ready to leave for work

" You...you can't...I can't go for you " I retort

She turns around completely to look at me

" Jimin come on, I'll be on court all day, I won't be able to free myself, and I can't miss that first meeting, you should go for me "

" No " I say, my jaw clenches hardly

She walks towards me, she caresses my cheek gently as she smiles

" Jimin... what's wrong ? "

" You can't let me go to that meeting or whatever it is by my own, I don't know anything about lilies...or satin "

" What? " She asks, confused

" Well...I just can't go, I have to work " I respond as I walk away from her

She sighs

" Why are you making things always so complicated for me ? " She retorts

" I'm not making..."

" Why it's always what you want? And no consideration for what I also want? The world doesn't circle around you Jimin, you're not the only one working here " she says, her voice gradually raising

" Lord! Emily, when did I didn't give you any consideration? "

" Now...for example "

" Honey it's not that I don't want to help you with things, I just don't wanna go there... it's... it's a woman thing " I say, not knowing what else I could say to convince her

But I realized too late that I picked the wrong words

" It's a woman thing? What are you implying by that? That you are too MAN to care about your own wedding ceremony? " She retorts angrily

" Emi, this is not what I meant..."

" This is what I understood "

" Emily...I..."

" I understand that you were born with a silver spoon in your mouth and that you are used to having everything, whenever you want it without much effort, but I work like a fucking lunatic while you wander around big museums as a job " she shouts at me

" What are you implying right now ? "

She sighs

" Make me feel that I'm important too, that my words matter, that even though I'm not gaining as much as you do, but you respect me "

I run a hand through my hair

" When did I ever make you feel that undeserving? Are you just making these things up right now? And when did this conversation was about how much we're gaining? "

She grabs her bag and walks towards the door

" I'm going to be late "

" Emily..."

But only the door slamming was the answer I got

I exhale, confused

I don't even understand what all that argument was about

I've been an asshole many times, but I've never done anything to lower Emily's self-esteem, on the contrary, all I've given her is love, she knows that everything I have belongs to her too, I'm not trying to play who has the most power in our relationship, why is she telling me things like that now?