A MAN TO HEAL

chapter eighteen

POV Jimin

I get in the office hesitantly, waiting for her to say something so I won't have to continue, but she doesn't say anything,she is standing next to the window, staring outside with her arms crossed around her chest

" You... want to talk to me ? " I ask simply

She finally turns around to look at me

And it's my first time ever seeing a frown on her face, it's my first time witnessing her being visibly mad

" Close the door behind you, you don't want the entire mansion to hear our conversation do you? " She says

I gulp as I pull the door handle behind me

Keeping the door open was my only hope to act consciously , but it just vanished

My heart is beating so fast that it's the only thing that I can hear

" I'm not going to beat around the bush Mr Park..."

" Please don't call me that " I say

" Mr Park " she insists stubbornly

" Suki "

" No no, from now on, you're calling me Miss Lee "

" Why? "

" Cause I say so "

" But we pinky promised "

" It doesn't matter anymore " she retorts

" It does , it's what makes me feel close to you " I utter

I have no idea when I said these words

" I don't want you to feel close to me " she retorts

" Suki..." I protest

" Listen...I didn't ask you here to argue about some stupid and childish pinky promise thing, I want to talk to you about what happened last night " she says

I take a deep breath

" About last night " I repeat

" exactly...it was irresponsible and completely immature, embarrassing as well, I know the words I've said and I still remember yours, it happened already and we can't do anything about it, what was said was said, but I don't want things like that to happen again, even though I'd rather not to, I'll still have to be around you cause I'm working with you, so please...I want you to stay professional so everything can go well "

I look at her as the flow of words leave her mouth, even when upset she is adorable

" You want me to be professional " I repeat

" Exact Mr Park "

" We were at a bar last night, you didn't have any catalog in your hands when you came to me, it wasn't a work appointment "

" Yet...but we have to agree that it was awkward and uncomfortable "

" Not for me "

" Well I assume that you have no shame then... "

" Suki "

" Stop calling me that, don't you see how hard I'm trying to keep a distance between us, don't you see it? "  She says, her voice cracks

I take a step closer involuntarily

" Stay away " she retorts while making a hand stop gesture

I stop immediately

" Do you really think it's gonna work, keeping the distance, keeping it professional and all that? "

" And what do you want me to do? Listen to my irrational side of the brain and jump in your arms? Kiss you? Maybe I should do that...you know, maybe I should kiss you and see if that attraction will stop, if that hunger will stop once fed " she says without even taking a breath in the middle of her sentence