POV SukiMy throat goes dry, I'm feeling dizzy, I feel something moving inside my chest and it is more like I'm about to throw up than anything else
My eyes look at Emily, she keeps talking, but I can't catch a word
I just know she looks happy
She has her hand around Jimin's arm, her head leans towards his shoulder happily while she is just complimenting my work for the umpteenth time and praising it to say how talented I am, the most talented person she has ever met...
I feel so shameful and guilt knots my guts
How did I let that happen?
It's been almost three years now since that happened
Three years
But I still remember every single detail that it almost feels like yesterday
That's why I don't understand why he remains so detached, so unfazed, unbothered
Did he actually forget?
Was I really that forgettable?
How does he simply don't want to talk about it ?
It's not like we had to talk about it, after all...we didn't owe each other anything
But still...
I take a deep breath, trying to calm down before my legs decide to give up
I should tell that woman that we're already packed and that I can't get a contract with her
I should tell her anything, any lie, just to get away from this
But I look at her, she seems so enthusiastic and she just wants the best for the most beautiful day of her life
And it happens that I'm unfortunately the best
Lord...what do I do?
What do I say ?
I won't be able to stand the look of disappointment and sadness she would give me if I tell her that I can't be the one for that
I was never able to say no nor to lie
I never wanted to be the one to make people feel disappointed or sad, even though I have to sacrifice my own well-being
I clear my throat
" I was glad to meet you Miss Marshall, but I have to go now, I'm with my colleagues and they will probably wonder where I am, here's my business card, give us a call and we can discuss about what you told me "
" Oh really? " She says, her blue eyes widen with pure happiness
I shake my head vehemently, looking at her instead of looking at the man standing next to her
" Thank you for considering my fiancée's demand, she really wants it to be you " finally says Jimin
His voice sounds like his sentence wasn't complete
As if something was missing
Like, "" she really wants it to be you but it's not my wish ""
I swallow hardly as I turn around to face him
He looks...
How do I describe that?
I throw the idea of trying to describe his pretty face, his full lips, his intense gaze away to focus on the actual situation
" It's simply my job " I reply
I try my best to make sure that my voice sound professional, but I don't like how it sounds in my ears when it comes out
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A MAN TO HEAL
Romanceshe planned his whole weddind with an other woman while being secretly in love with him