A MAN TO HEAL

chapter twenty six

POV Suki

It's been an hour and I'm still sitting in the bathtub, lost in my thoughts, reviving all the events that happened in the last twenty four hours

A lot has actually happened

From the hours spent with Jimin in the museum, my mental breakdown in the backseat of a taxi on my way home, my small aggression this morning

It seems like, luck has left my life

The water in the bathtub is now cold and the foam disappeared completely

I stand up and wrap myself in a towel as I leave the bathroom

I didn't make it to the office today, I didn't want to face Alessio, and what happened in my morning jog was the perfect excuse

I still feel so bad for the things I've done with Jimin but at the same time, I know I would have done them again if the scenario had to happen again

I just can't help it, he has that effect on me and he knows it

That's why he can play with my feelings that way

I put on a black short jeans I got from Levi's and an oversized knitted pull with cute little bows I got from a Korean store three years ago when I went there in a family trip with my parents

I decide to let my hair dry in free air

I grab my journal and take a beer as I sit down on my kitchen table

I write down the only words I couldn't tell him yesterday night or every time he got me on my nerves

~~Park Jiminssi, fuck you~~

I write them in capital letters just to emphasize how angry I am as I write them

I want to scream but I don't

My phone rings and I immediately picks it up

" Eomma " I say with my most joyous voice

" Suki-ah! I saw the news, how are you doing? Should we visit? Tell me ,are you alright? Did you get hurt ?"

"Ask her if she ate dinner " I hear my dad say in the background

" Eomma, I'm completely fine "

" But I saw the news "

" It was nothing, they exaggerated as usual, you know how people on TV are "

" Are you sure ? " Insisted my Mom

" Yes, don't worry about me "

The doorbell rings and I find the perfect excuse to hang up before my mother pertinence makes me crack

The thing is, I'm not okay

But it's not cause of that man following me, harassing me and pushing me in the empty road

It's more cause of a man who actually pinned me against a wall, kissed me, caressed me then sent me home

I go to open the door and I find Alessio standing at the doorstep, carrying takeout food packets and a bouquet of lilies mixed with other flowers and garments, making a very colorful and beautiful bouquet

I smile at him

He is such a gentleman

Why can't I love him the way I love Jimin?

He doesn't even deserve that love I have for him

" I'm sorry for being the reason you had to leave your favorite place, which means...the office " I say playfully