His Shortcake

Chapeter Twenty eight ~Her demons~

~Her Demons~

(Tw: Suicidal attempt)

"Fuck, fuck, fuck! I'm such a fucking idiot." I've made everyone's life's miserable all over his sister. But whose sister hugs them like that? And get lipstick on their neck?

Then I hear her voice.

'You're better off dead anyway. You think anyone is going to miss you?'

I close my eyes trying to will her away.

'Wow, you really are so pathetic. You don't have the balls to do it again.'

My eyes snap open and I pour all the pills into my hand. I stare at them tears in my eyes. "No one is going to miss me. No one will be burdened by me anymore."

Closing my eyes as I cry, I shove all the pills into my mouth. I then sit on the ground hugging Maddox's hoodie. It was the only thing I had left of a broken relationship.

Slowly my eyes get heavy and I lay down on the floor and go to sleep.

<Reed's>

"Tate, please hurry I have to go!" I pound on the door to no answer. "You been in there for an hour." I whine. After more silence I give up.

"Screw this I'm going to Maddox's." I run out and over and bang on the door. When he answer he gives me a smile.

"What's up my dude?" He says.

"I really need to use the bathroom, Tatum been in ours for over an a hour and she is being mean and ignoring me." I explain.

"Is it okay if I go over?" He asks.

"As long as I can use your bathroom." I say.

"Ya go ahead." He lets me in.

<Maddox>

I hurry over and pound in the door. No answer. "Tatum if you're in there please say something." I close my eyes waiting for a response.

"I'm sorry about the door." I say and kick the door in. "Oh fuck." She was so pale holding onto my jacket.

I hurry in and pull her into my lap. "Hey I need you to wake up now." Holding her in my lap I call 911.

"911 what's your emergency."

"Please just send someone, I think she is dying." I get out.

"Who is she?"

"Tatum Ryland. I think she took some pills. She's not waking up." As the words left my mouth, I fucking lost it.

"Please Tate! Why would you do this! I love you!" I yell but still no response.

They get here pretty quick and they force me to let her go. Luckily my mom managed to keep Reed over at the house so he didn't have to see this.

As they work on her they hook up a machine and it's flatlining. "No heartbeat." A paramedic says. They start CPR it was to hard to watch. That's when her dad comes running in, by the look on my face he must knows.

"Oh god." He breaks down crying and I hold him crying myself. I'm not sure how long we stand there but they finally take her out still working on her.

"I shouldn't have left her alone. I'm so sorry." I choke out.

"It's not your fault Maddox. Tatum has demons, she wouldn't have asked anyone for help." He says.

"Just-I can't lose her. She is the best thing that's ever happened to me. I need her." He hugs me tightly.

"Do you want me to give you a ride to the hospital?" He asks. I nod numbly.

When we get there, they put us in a separate waiting room. I pace back and forth, at this point I'm not sure what time of day it is or how much time has passed but I'm getting irritated no one has came to give an update.

"How long does it take? I mean come on." I groan.

"It takes time."

"How are you so calm right now?" I ask.

"Because I've been through this before when she was younger." He says sadly.

"Right, sorry." I mumble.

"It's fine. Do you want to go out for some fresh air?" He asks.

"No." I sit down closing my eyes. Just imagining us up at the cabin. That was when we were the happiest.

"Mr. Ryland?" My eyes snap open and the doctor comes in with a clip board and sits down.

"Just give it to us straight doc." I say.

"Well, right now she is stable. We were able to pump her stomach. But as you know when paramedics got there, her heart wasn't beating, therefore blood supply was cut off to her brain. We won't know how much damage was done until she wakes up." I close my eyes. She was alive.

"She's alive." Her dad says.

"She is alive." Doctor confirms.

"Oh thank god." We were both really relieved.

"But I do have some bad news." That immediately erased my good mood.

"Bad news..?" I ask.

"Yeah, I'm assuming you're her boyfriend."

"Yeah?" Why the hell does that matter?

"I'm sorry to say she lost the baby." I stare at him a few times, is this fucker seriously playing jokes with me.

"Uh what baby would that be?" I ask.

Her dad is wide eyed in shock.

"She was pregnant. You didn't know? I'd say about six weeks." I sit back in my chair feeling a bit conflicted.

"What the fuck is happening right now?" I mumble.

"I'm I'll give you some time. I'll come get you when you can visit." He leaves.

I drop my head into my hands. "Are you okay?" I hear him say.

"I'm so confused. We used protection. She never told me she was pregnant. I don't understand." I groan.

"Things happen, and it was still early so she probably didn't even know."

"I don't know if this is a good thing or a bad thing." I admit. "I mean, I don't want to be a teen parent, but on the other hand that was my baby that died." I say.

"Maybe you should go home and get some rest." He suggests.

"That's a good idea..I'll come later, I promise." I get up and leave.