Inner voice

Never meant to be

Oh, love, yes love, I experienced it once, such a traumatic feeling. Love so bright it can blind you yet so dark it could drown you. I don't believe in it anymore. I did once, a long time ago, when I was just a foolish girl, thinking I could be loved just the way I am but not anymore. I loved a guy once, not just any guy but a broken one, the one that had no family, well he had a family but that family treated him like shit, he had no love to begin with. But I was ready to give him my all thinking I could heal him, when in reality the one who needed healing was me. It was never meant to be.  I was broken and I couldn't heal with him breaking me, giving him my fucking everything! For what?! For him to break my heart?! For him to leave?! To take just the best of me leaving me with nothing but a bit of rotten piece?! To leave me shattered, wondering if I will ever be whole, my heart aching whenever I heard your words.  Cause you engraved those lies in my heart, your name covered with all the silent cries. There is nothing that could tear us apart yet you left just like that. Not a single goodbye, not a word, just a silent cry, just a look, not even a warm one but deadly and cold. That single goodbye that ruined my life and that's the story of how I fell apart. Story of my life how people left, how they all lied to my face, how I became alone, trapped inside my home I can't call my own. This is the story of how I lost my smile, my will and reason to stay alive. There is nothing and no one out there that would truly care, care for the pain and mess they made, came for my pain, no for their own gain, for my comfort no for their fame, quess I'm the one to blame, blame for trsuting you so fast for giving my heart away when I knew you wouldn't stay. I guess you and me were never meant to be.