Allure of Darkness!

43. Why Didn't He?

Marona's POV

I stared at the garden blankly while sitting on the huge window of the hallway in the castle.
The weather is good unlike the storm in my heart.

Why is Mikhail so difficult to crack open? Man just has to confess the reality but he is too stubborn.
No! I won't tell him that I know because I have suffered because of it and I deserve an explanation. I didn't deserve the suffering. Laurence didn't deserve me.
Now I know that he was the one with whom I slept for the first time. I thought it was Laurence because the next morning when I asked our guard about the man who left my room, he said it was Laurence. I asked Laurence and he confirmed that it was him.
But he lied to me, I don't know why. He wasn't the one, he was never the one and now I understand why I never felt connected to him even after trying so hard. I tried to pour out my soul in marriage with Laurence but it always felt dull and lifeless.

There was a reason why I was looking for the man who had slept with me. There was a huge motive behind it but Laurence fucked it up and Mikhail never tried to disclose it to me. These men used me like a toy.

After marriage when I saw Mikhail's handwriting, it was matching the note which I found on the mirror. It had his name on it 'Leo'.
And that whistle, I was drunk but still remember that he collided with me while whistling that tune.

When I heard that in the club, I thought I was overthinking but then he whistled it again in front of me and everything was crystal clear.

Why didn't you try to approach me, Mikhail? Why?
Was it that easy for you to just pass me to your brother. And if yes then why did you kill him when I got married to him. Why not before?
You proudly tell me about your obsession towards me then why your blood didn't boil when I was with Laurence.

I feel humiliated and abandoned. You did the same thing which my parents did to me.

I was under the impression that Laurence was the man I was looking for but I struggled to enjoy his touch. I never felt satisfied or never felt complete like I feel with Mikhail.

Call me crazy but whenever he touches me, I feel loved. I feel satisfied. He knows how to handle me. His touch never feels disgusting.

But that doesn't mean I am going to let you go so easily. You abandoned me now you will find me. I'll be in front of you but you won't be able to see me.
You don't want to confess things then it's okay, I know how to make you talk but my ways won't be soft like yours.

You just have to come to me and tell me why you didn't approach me, why you let me go with Laurence, why you killed him after marriage and why the fuck you are not telling me the truth but no, you don't want to do that then fine!

"Where is your phone?"
I flinched when I heard his deep voice from too close.
He was standing behind me with his arrogant face and attitude. I always think about smacking him down with his smirk but he is too handsome for that.

My brain and heart don't coordinate when I deal with this man. The brain says that just makes him cry for abandoning you and the heart says to hold back because he is healing us.
It has never happened before.

I sighed.
"I forgot it in the room. Sorry!"
I replied nervously.

No matter how much my heart is flattered on him, my brain never feels safe around him because I don't know his depth. That's the reason why I was pressuring him to tell me everything so I can trust him with closed eyes but the man is not ready.

He is good till now but what if he flips into his father. I can't ignore that he is Leonardo's son. How am I supposed to know him if he is not opening up in front of me.
I can't tell him my darkness until he takes a step ahead.