After the Rebellion

You came home..

 *Katniss Pov*

I sit in my sofa next to the fireplace with Buttercup on my lap, and Greasy Sae has come in to check on me and ask if I have eaten anything. 

I tell her yes knowing its not true but she would force me to eat if I told her I haven't eaten in a week. 

Haymitch checks on me occasionally but most of the time he is laying on the floor of his dining room with liquor bottles surrounding him. He hasn't been much help but I'm still grateful to have him.

Peeta is still in the Capitol trying to find the boy he once was before the hijacking, and although he has his memory back I know my boy with the bread will never be be same.

 He probably doesn't care for me anymore after snow showed him who I truly am. 

Even though the images weren't true my selfish trait was and it hurts for him to see me as a selfish person, even though I always was. 

I pet Buttercup between his ears and he purrs and wags his tail. He reminds me so much of my little duck, and how much she loved this cat. She didn't deserve anything she went through, and if anything I deserved it.

I decide I'm going to go in the woods today, not to hunt but to simply get out of the house and enjoy the world that is now safe from Snow. It's currently Spring, and it's beautiful outside with the perfect weather. I get up of the sofa and decide to go take a shower. 

The hot steamy water running down my back feels good and I forgot how relaxing a shower is. I wash my hair with strawberry shampoo and run my hand through my hair by scrubbing all the dirt away. 

Then I use a conditioner that smells like coconut and run it through my hair detangling each and every knot.  

Then I use a vanilla scented body wash and scrub it all over my body. The hot steamy water washes all of the soap off and I get out and wrap myself with a towel and pick out my outfit.

 I wear some dark green jeans and put on my fathers hunting jacket. I do my signature braid down my back, and my hair has gotten so long my braid is almost all the way down to my butt.

 I put on some hunting boots and head out of the door. 

I walk out out of my lonely house in the victors village and  decide to check on Haymitch before I leave, and as I expected he is sitting at the dining table fast asleep. 

I assume he's drunk. I shake him and try to wake him up but its not working, so I wake him up my way. I take a bucket of water fill it up and dump it on his head. 

He jumps up right away saying "What the hell are you doing!"      \

I came in to check on you, I say. Don't you think you could have woken me up a different way sweetheart. I could've but that would take hours considering how hungover you are. He glares at me drinking his liquor.

 I just came to check on you and tell you I'm going to the woods. Good for you sweetheart, finally getting out of the house I see eh? Yep, I say I want to enjoy the woods as it was always a safe place for me. Have a good time sweetheart, He says. I will I say bye Haymitch! Bye sweetheart. 

I leave his house and head towards the woods where Gale and I's spot used to be. This spot brings so many memories good and bad. 

Gale is in district two now because he got some fancy job to keep order and security. I am still not quite certain how I feel about Gale, but he is probably kissing another pair of lips now forgetting about everything we had. 

It's not like we had much but he was my best friend and I can't just forget that. Even though he was my best friend it doesn't change the fact he made the bomb that killed my sister. 

I snap out of thoughts and I see my bow in the spot I always stashed it, but I dont grab it because I don't have the heart to hunt and kill animals right now it brings back too many memories from my time in the games.

 I stop by a lake and throw some rocks into the water and then decide to head back home. It's already sunset with the beautiful orange surrounding the sky  and I immediately think of my boy with the bread. 

I remember the moment just like it was yesterday.  Not bright orange, soft like the sunset"                                                                                                                     

That is when he agreed to just be friends and I miss that friendship we had, even though I knew it was more than friendship on the beach and when we kissed. 

That kiss made me feel something that was an indescribable feeling. 

That is when I realized I loved him, but it was all to late because then he was taken by Snow tortured, hijacked, and hated me. 

I snap out of my thoughts and continue walking home with an empty mind and walk into victors village where only me and Haymitch live, and of course Peeta's empty house Is there too but he will likely not come home. 

Dr. Aurelius said he was actually making a lot of progress though and is welcome to come home whenever he feels ready. 

He probably doesn't want to come home though because I'm here and who would want to come home to me. 

Even though he has had a crush on me since I was five he know sees me as my selfish self. 

I get closer to Victors village when I see something in my garden I cant quite make out what I see but its a person I assume its Greasy Sae planting some flowers for her daughters. 

She likes to use my garden because it has much more room, and I don't mind I never even use it anyways. As I get closer I realize it's not greasy Sae. 

"It's my boy with the bread"