After the Rebellion

Arguing and Tears

*Katniss Pov*

I wake up in the morning and walk downstairs to see Peeta cooking in the kitchen, and the smell of cheese buns fills the air. 

I rest my head on his shoulder which startles him. 

"You scared me Kat" he says.

Sorry I say.

It's alright. How did you sleep beautiful. I slept well. I say.

Okay go sit down darling i'll bring you some cheese buns. Okay Peeta, I love you. I love you too Kat. He says. 

He brings me a plate of cheese buns with some juice and I take a bite of my cheese bun and hear a knock on the door. Ill grab it says Peeta. 

I wonder who it could be. I think. Haymitch wouldn't knock, and Effie just left for the capitol. Peeta opens the door and I hear a very familiar voice and walk over. 

"It's my mother" 

I sit staring at the door with a blank expression. 

Hello Mrs. Everdeen. Says Peeta. Well hello there Peeta. Says the lady who I used to call my mother. 

I can't believe she just thinks she can leave me to rot alone again for another 8 months. Except this time I don't need to take care of my sweet Prim. Even though I wish I could. 

"What the hell are you doing here!" I say angrily. 

I just thought I would come visit to see my daughter. Says my mother. 

That would've been nice 8 months ago. I say.

She has a guilty look on her face because she knows she left her last daughter alone. You just left me alone again mother! Just like you did when dad died. 

I'm sorry Katniss I was mourning the loss of my daughter, coming back here would have reminded me of her too much. 

You don't think that it was hard for me! You left me alone in the house with her room, and all the memories of her, and you never even thought to visit! I yell. 

I'm sorry dear. she says.

DON'T CALL ME THAT!  I scream

If you loved me you would have taken care of me when I was hurting the most. I know dear but I just couldn't move with the thought of  my daughter being gone.

I understand, but you have to know that its not all about you! 

Why don't you come for dinner to talk things over Mrs. Everdeen. Says Peeta

That would be lovely. She says. 

I sit there shocked he just said that. 

She says goodbye and shuts the door, and I immediately stare at Peeta with disgust. 

WHY THE HELL DID YOU INVITE HER OVER. I scream at him. 

I was trying to help. He says with an angry tone. 

Well sometimes Peeta you don't know what is best for me! I say with tears streaming down  my face. 

WHAT DO YOU MEAN, I DO KNOW WHATS BEST FOR YOU, AND I TRY TO DO THE BEST FOR YOU. He screams so loud making me want to break down and cry. 

I WAS TRYING TO HELP YOUR MOTHER. he yells. 

She is not my mother! I scream angrily. 

She is your mother Katniss whether you like it or not, and she is trying her hardest.

NO SHE IS NOT SHE LEFT ME PEETA. 

I would do anything to have my mother back, and she beat me! he says.

DID YOU FORGET YOUR BOW AND ARROW WAS THE ONE THAT KILLED MINE?! He screams.

He covers his hand over his mouth realizing what he just said. Tears start streaming down my face while a pang of guilt hits me, like a slap in the face. 

"I am the one who killed his whole family, why is he even here."

"WHY ARE WE EVEN ENGAGED THAN?! WHY DO WE LIVE TOGETHER. I AM LEAVING. I scream. 

I slam the door so loud it echoes through the whole village. 

I run outside barefoot in the cold morning air to Haymitch's house with tears streaming down my face. I barge in the room to see Effie and Haymtich sitting on the couch. 

I walk in the door crying struggling to breathe and Effie runs to me hugging me having me take deep breaths which calms me down a little, and she has me sit on the couch. 

I thought you were leaving, I asked with a quiet voice. 

I decided to stay a couple more days. she says. 

What happened sweetheart? Haymitch asks me when I am calmer. 

This makes me break down into tears all over again, and I mumble Peeta and I got into a fight, a really bad one I say. 

Darling its alright I'm sure he feels horrible. 

That boy loves you more than anything sweetheart. Haymitch says. 

He said that I am the reason he killed his mother, and he is not wrong. I mumble. 

Sweetheart you did not kill his mother it was snow's fault. He says. That's what he thinks I mumble. I am sure he didn't mean it, darling. Says Effie. 

I also told him that I didn't want to be engaged or live with him. I say. 

Is it true? asks Haymtich.

No... I say with tears going down my face. He is my everything. I say. 

But I just don't understand how he lives with me when he knows I killed him mother. I say.

Darling he loves you so much and I bet he doesn't feel that way you were both just yelling and saying horrible things that you both don't mean. She says. 

Why don't you rest in the guest room, and Effie will make you some breakfast. Says Haymtich.

Okay. I say. 

Effie brings me some eggs and bacon because I only had a bite of a cheese bun that Peeta made for me this morning. 

I sit in bed staring at my food I take a bite of eggs and feel guilty about what happened with Peeta. 

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It is now nighttime, and I have decided to stay here tonight because I cant face Peeta yet, and Haymtich doesn't mind.

Hey Katniss, Peeta called making sure you were alright. He would like to talk to you he says. 

I don't want to talk to him I say . 

That's alright sweetheart. He hangs up with Peeta and comes back into the room,. He feels guilty, I can hear it in his voice. He shouldn't I say. 

"I killed his mother". 

Katniss that's not true, why don't you go to sleep and we can figure it all out in the morning. Goodnight sweetheart sleep well. He says while giving me a kiss on the forehead. Effie comes in and gives me a hug and a glass of warm milk. Good night darling sweet dreams. She says. 

I close my eyes knowing that my sleep will be filled of horrible nightmares without my Peeta here to comfort me.