After the Rebellion

Miss me?

*Katniss Pov*

I cant believe my eyes is that really him? It cant be, can it?  It's silent for a moment, and I realize what's in his hand its a Primrose... He must know I saw the flowers because he says                             

"I went up to the woods this morning and dug these up, for her."                                                                   

He didn't say exactly who he was talking about, but I knew he was talking about my little duck, the girl who would never hurt a fly, always cared about others, and had a kind soul. I sometimes wonder how we were ever related. I see his bright blue eyes and they remind me so much of her eyes and her blonde hair that hung over her shoulders, she truly was beautiful. I snap back into reality when he says "Katniss how have you been?"                                                                                              

 I've been good I start, but before I knew it there were tears running down my face knowing that is not true. He opens his arms and I practically collapse into them. 

Why is he always the one taking care of me I think, after all he was the one who was hijacked. What's wrong Katniss he says. Nothing I say although we both know its not true. 

Katniss you look very thin. Have you been eating he asks. 

No I say knowing I cant lie to him. Let's go get you something to eat he says. I'm still crying into his shirt as it becomes wet from my tears. I wipe my tears and we walk back to Victors Village in a comfortable silence.

We arrive at my house and looks through my pantry and fridge only to find no food. "Katniss how long has it been since you ate? There is no food at all here, he says. 

About a week or two I say quietly. Katniss you have to eat. I'm going to go grab some food, Ill be back in 20 minutes he says. Okay I say. See you soon. Bye Katniss he says. While I wait for Peeta to come back home I sit on my sofa, and all I can think about is my little duck. She was so sweet, she deserves to be here right now not me. I

 don't deserve a lot of things, like surviving yet I still am here. I decide to go to her room since I haven't been in there since I've been home.

 I walk into her room with the walls painted baby pink, rose sheets, full body mirror, her vanity, her hairbrush, and her closet with all her beautiful clothes. It's exactly how she left it. I cry for what seems like an eternity when he hear the door open. 

Peeta calls for me but I don't move I stay put on my little ducks made bed. He searches the rooms and finds me curled up in a ball and scoops me up and puts me into his lap. He tucks a strand of hair that fell out of my braid behind my ear and says,              

   "Katniss, I know it hurts but Prim would not want you crying everyday about her'' 

I know he's right Prim would want me to enjoy my life because she is so selfless. Peeta always knows what to say, he's always been good with words. He scoops me up as if I weigh no more than a pound and takes me downstairs. He places me on the couch as he starts making some food. I know exactly what he's making just from the smell of it.                                                                  "

Lamb stew"  

 He places a plate of food in front of me and I just stare at it, I really am disrespectful I think he went all the way to the hob to buy me some food cooked it and I just sit there not caring at all. Katniss you have to eat. I'm not hungry I say. 

I know but please do it for me. I can't help but feel bad because he went out of his way to make me a meal so I decided to take a couple bites, and Peeta's cooking is phenomenal so I can't help but finish my whole plate.

I guess I just didn't know I was actually hungry. He smiles at me and takes my plate and I stare of into space I really am lucky to have my boy with the bread I think to myself

He returns back into the dining room and lifts me up the stairs He places me in bed and he says he's going to head home. 

 "No I think to myself, he cant leave".                                                                                                                            

    I start to say don't leave but all that comes out is, Okay, Goodnight Peeta. Goodnight Katniss. He says. Then he walks out the door quietly and heads to his home. I start to get comfortable and situated for sleep, even though I know It will be interrupted by nightmares, but I'm used to it I have nightmares every night. I close my eyes and start to fall asleep.