Little broken birds {ed sheeran & One direction fanfiction}

Chapter 19

(Izzy’s POV)

Everyone kept telling me to cheer up, to eat something, to have a good time.

But they didn’t get it, not one of them understood.

How could I try and even enjoy myself the slightest bit, when HE was in the same room as me? Nobody had said that what harry told me wasn’t true, nobody tried to convince me that Harry hadn’t meant to say that. And Ed hadn’t even spoken to me other than to say hello!

I mean, the last time I saw him he kept apologising, and he kissed me…

Well, not a proper kiss like before, I guess he learnt his lesson. But he kissed me on the cheek.

That had to mean something, didn’t it?

I don’t get it. Harry said he never would have kissed me that first time if he hadn’t been drunk. So that meant that Ed didn’t like me in that way. I can’t blame him though. I’m ugly and fat, there are millions of girls around the world who would love to call Ed Sheeran their boyfriend. He could have almost ANYONE, so why would he ever choose me?

He wouldn’t.

But then why did he kiss me on the cheek? Maybe he felt guilty. That had to be it.

“Izzy?” someone said, while waving their hand in front of my face.

“Oh, erm, sorry. I guess I zoned out for a bit there.” I apologised.

I looked up to see who the person was.

It was HIM.

He must have moved to the seat next to me when I wasn’t paying attention.

“No need to apologise love.” Ed said. Hehe, that rhymes.

Oh my god, he just called me love.

“Can we talk Izzy? I know things have been bad lately, and I don’t want things to be awkward between us anymore.” He pleaded.

I nodded and got up, following him into the garden.

I glanced back over my shoulder, nobody was looking at us. No one wondered where we were going.

That’s when I realised they must have planned this. Niall and Harry must have thought a sleep over was a good excuse to get me talking to Ed.

We walked over to the big oak tree at the end of Niall’s garden, and sat behind it, so nobody from the house could see us.

“Look, Izzy. Harry told me what he said to you. I just wanted to make it clear to you that that isn’t true. I don’t understand why you believed him so easily though.” He started.

“B-because it makes no sense. Why else would you have kissed me? I don’t get it, you could have anybody in the whole world so why would you want me? I’m not pretty, I have quite a crap personality right now, so it just didn’t make any…”

He made me stop talking by bringing his head down and placing his lips on my own. Only this time, he pulled away quickly, after a gentle peck.

“I kissed you then for the same reason that I kissed you just a moment ago. I-I like you Isabella. Yeah, I could probably have any girl that I wanted. But I want you. You’re right, you’re not pretty.” He said.

What? Was he shitting me right now?

He leant in to whisper something in my ear.

“You’re beautiful.” He murmured.

God his voice is so sexy.

“Not as sexy as you babe.” Ed chuckled.

“Wait. Did I say that out loud?”

He laughed again. “yep.” He said, popping the p.

I face palmed.

“God, I’m so embarrassing.” I muttered.

“Look, I really like you. And I would love to take you out for dinner some-when. What do you say? I completely understand if you don’t like me in that…”

This time I cut him off with my own lips.

He kissed me back, and gently bit my lower lip, asking for entrance. I gladly let him in and it was like fireworks.

Weird, how the last time this happened it ended with me going into a coma for like 7 weeks.

After a few minutes the need to breathe tore us apart, and we were both breathless.

“I take it, that that’s a yes then?” Ed asked, smirking.

“It is.” I answered.

“You’re so cute when you grin and blush at the same time.” Ed said, which just made me grin and blush more.

“I understand that you’re probably nervous about all this. Harry told me about he who must not be named so I get it. We can take this slowly if you want. I know how long it can take to get over a relationship like that…”

“How could you understand? Have you ever been with someone who you thought you loved, and then after four years they cheat on you? Have you Ed?”

I felt bad for snapping at him like that, what was wrong with me? But it was true.

Ed looked down at his hands, and I think I saw a tear escape his eye.

“Actually, yeah I have.” He whispered.

“Oh my god, Ed I’m so sorry! I didn’t mean to make you upset.”

He smiled, “It’s alright love, it was over a year ago now, I think I’m over her now.”

I grinned. “You know what? When you first kissed me one of the reasons that I ran away was because I was so confused. I had feelings for you but I still felt like I loved James. But since I saw you today, I’d forgotten about him. I think it’s thanks to you Ed.” I told him in a whisper.

“That’s great, and since I came out here with you I haven’t thought about her either. But it may be a bit harder.” He told me.

I looked at him, confused.

“Why’s that?”

He took a deep breath.

“Because it’s Alice. The girl I was in love with for over four years is Niall’s girlfriend. The one sat in the house right this minute.” He let out.

He looked like he was about to cry, so I kissed him, which made him smile.

That’s when Harry walked out into the garden.

Oops

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So, I just wanted to say thank you for reading MBB. It just hit 100 reads so I'm quite happy! I never really expected people to take interest in it, but my friend convinced me to publish it so I guess I owe her.

I hope you like the story so far.

Oh, and this is most likely going to be a trilogy, so it will be three stories once finished. Although if I get too much creativeness it could end up being more than three instalments, but at the moment that's what I'm planning so we shall see.

Thank you again.

Lot's of love

Laura :) xx