i forgot i am a particle of your dream.
i'm not the dreamer.
the last dream i had was to be dreamless
and even then i woke up before it began.
i began to believe that the pills will save me.
i began to think the pills were the seeds
of the bodhi tree, forgetting all the years
before the middle path. i began to plant
myself in your dream like a tree of axe.
i mistook your shadows on the empty space
of my halo to be the blots of love.
but i have no halo. i'm just a limb
waiting for you to come. i'm just a limb
waiting for you to come back.
i'm beginning to take the shape of your
moving, raving dream, and i'm happy
being dreamlessly await.
~ ajay
18/9/2024
