FALLING FOR YOU ..

LI - Regret and Reconciliation

Freen's POV

I woke up disoriented and tried to get up. But a strong grip pulled me closer to her and I remembered all about last night. I knew that even the memory makes me blush hard. Becky hugged me tightly from behind and pulled me closer to her. Her right hand around my stomach and left hand cupping my right breast. I am practically lying on her hand. I am completely naked compared to her fully clothed state.

"Don't... 10 more minutes.." -- She groaned and nuzzled closer to my neck when I tried to move. Her palm squeezed my breast, making me feel ... Oh god!!

I lied like that thinking of the memories from last night. My body is aching at all the right places.

"What are you thinking of baby?" -- She whispered near my ear.. Her morning voice.....

I slowly turned around and Becky leaned down, placed a gentle kiss on my forehead.. then sweet pecks on nose, cheeks and lips..

"It's not fair you know..." -- I hid my face in the crook of her neck and said and she whispered a 'why' in my ears, kissing on it.

"You are all dressed and I am....." -- I could not continue and I knew that she was smirking proudly.

Becky slowly raised, balancing her weight on her elbows and faced me.. Her eyes shining like stars... -- "I love you Bunny...." -- She kissed my lips gently and I returned it with a sweet kiss. She looks like an angel.. It does not feel like it's the same person who controlled and made me moan endlessly yesterday night.

"What are you thinking of baby? You know you are staring...?" -- Becky asked and I raised my hand to cup her cheek..... Suddenly the light in her eyes disappeared and her brows furrowed..

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Becky's POV

I was awestruck by the beauty of my girl in front of me... Her perfect lips... The most captivating eyes... The perfect shape of her face.. The hair strands adorning her face .. Then I caught her staring back at me.

"What are you thinking of baby? You know you are staring...?" -- I asked and she raised her hand to cup my cheek..... And then.... Then I noticed... The faint marks on her hand. Which I did not notice yesterday night. Because of the urgency to have her and also because of the dim lights..

I took her hand and stared at what looked like tiny cut marks.. Like how a blade cut would look. I could understand one mark... But here I could see more.. Some almost fainted and some still look like fresh marks..

Then realization hit me and all the sleepiness left me. I quickly sat on the bed and Freen was not making any eye contact at all. I held her other hand and eagerly looked for any more marks.. Then I lifted the comforter and checked all over her... Especially her thighs.

Of course I had heard of self harming, but that was the first time I was seeing something like that. I had heard of people cutting where others won't notice easily and I took a closer look at her thighs. And there I saw some faint lines.. may be from years back.. or even months back..

I did not even realize that I was crying until Freen cupped my cheeks and wiped my tears away..

How did I miss it? How did I not know that she was hurting this much ...and worst..hurting herself! Is that why she went far far away? What could have she done if she did not go?! So many questions were burning my head and tears burned my eyes...

"That... that's all there baby... N...No-where else..." -- She whispered when I frantically started looking everywhere.. I could not speak. There was a huge lump in my throat which was suffocating me.. My tear drops falling on to her hands and body...since I was looking down, unable to face her.