Pita, continued

Chap.26, Deja Vu.

The weekend, I was also invited to my friends from a different school's homecoming. And of course I was going to go. I had so much fun that night, most because another guy I was interested in had followed me back. Backtracking time again!

After Sabatino dumped me, my list of crushes was completely wiped clean. Well, almost. A very small part of me still liked Haris, and I almost considered taking him back as my main. However, I got over it quickly when I noticed another guy. Sam Caira. He's in my world history class, and I thought he was very cute, which he is. He's half Polish, Half Italian, and he's the definition of my type looks-wise. Tall, muscular, fluffy brown hair, and big brown eyes. His Italian side earned him the nickname "Tiramisu" within my friend group. I was sort of using my crush on him to distract me from Sabatino, which is why I followed him on Instagram in attempt to make the first move only a week after we broke up. I wasn't sure if I was actually serious about him, I only thought he was cute and seemed nice. We had never talked, after all. We still haven't. But I quickly became obsessed with him soon after that weekend. I soon told all my friends about him and complained about how I wanted to talk to him. I kept attempting to, but I every time I did, I would get too scared and not do it. It was hard, because although I liked him, we really had nothing in common and therefore nothing to talk about. However, I did have people on the inside. 

See, at my lunch table on B days I sit by Sophia, Ethan, and Lillian. Lillian's cousin Colby, is best friends with Sam. They both also have the same lunch as us. So, one day at lunch, with my permission she texts Colby,

"Hey, I have a friend who likes Sam."

"Good for Caira, I'll let him know"

I was both excited and nervous after that. I wanted him to try and figure it out, but was afraid of what could happen if he did. But that wasn't even the most interesting thing that happened that week. Backstory time, AGAIN.

Remember Emil? The guy I liked in 8th grade, but he moved away? Well, I'd though he was coming back during Junior year. But to my surprise, during the first week of school, I saw none other than Emil walking in the hall. I was shocked. It took me second to register that it was him. A week or two later, during which I was talking to Sabatino, Sophia tells me something.

"I have a crush on this guy in my English, he's really cute and funny."

"Ooh, what's his name?"

"Emil."

No fucking way. You've got to be kidding me. I then confirmed with her that it was in fact that Emil, and told her about my history with him. At first, I supported her crush on him, of course. He is really good guy, and I definitely saw where she was coming from, having liked him before and all. At the time I wasn't too concerned about it though, I had Sabatino after all. Sophia would tell me stories about her interactions with him in English. Including his friends Josh, and RJ. Yes, that RJ. I would tease her about it, she was starting to sound as delusional as me when I liked Haris. But did I feed into her delusion a little bit? Of course. What're friends for? 

After Sabatino and I had broken up, Sophia continued to talk about her experiences with Emil. I was really only thinking about Sam at that point, there was also drama going on with him. But that soon changed. It all started on October 16th, when I had woken up from a dream about Emil flirting with me. I couldn't stop thinking about him the whole day after that, and in my daily journal I wrote, 

"I like Emil? Help??" 

I guess Sophia talking about him had got me thinking about him, I couldn't think of any other reason I might have dreamt about him. Unless it was some kind of premonition...  

I was very upset after I realized. See, this was not a good thing. Quite the opposite, actually. I mean, what kind of friend was I? Liking my best friend's crush? Well, I guess he was my crush first...Still, I felt horrible. I told no one about it, I couldn't have it getting back to Sophia. And even if he didn't like her, or rejected her, there was no way in hell I would pursue him without her permission. Girl code, you know? It's not like I had time to think about it though, with all the stuff going on with Sam.