Magcon: Can you feel my heart? // cash

chapter 30

•can you see the dark?•

|unedited|

Lyrics:

Take my hand and give me a reason to start again

Cams Pov:

"Nash can I come over today?" I ask walking to class with him.

"Why?" He questions opening the door and allowing both of us to go in.

"I need to tell you something," I say sitting down in the seat next to him.

He settles his backpack on the floor next to his chair and looks to me. He looks like he thinks about it before nodding a yes. I smile a little at him and turn to face the front board. The teacher is writing some word I have never heard of. She looks at me and Nash.

"Mr. Dallas why are you sitting there when your seat is on the other side of the room?" She asks with a serious tone.

"Change?" I shrug.

She rubs my answer off and just continues on with the lesson.

"I want change," I whisper to Nash, and he just gives me a confused look.

-

After class was dismissed Nash fled the classroom like he was trying to ignore me. I didn't bother chasing him for the fear that he was ignoring me and if I approached him he'd get mad or something. I meet up with Dan who was standing at his locker.

"Hey," I smile at him and waved.

"Hi," he says looking behind me for someone.

"Who're you looking for?" I ask.

"Phil," He simply replies.

"Are you guys dating?" I ask.

"I hope so," He looks at me a bit worried.

"What?"

"We got into a fight, that I prefer not to talk about, but not he's mad at me and I wanna make it up to him"

"At least you're dating the guy you like," I mumble.

"I thought you and Nash would've gotten together by now."

"I'm going to tell him today that I like him and ask him out. Hopefully he feels the same way, which he probably does, but everything with him involving feelings has been weird."

"Good luck dude," He says putting his hands on my shoulder.

He takes his hand off my shoulder and quickly runs in the direction behind me. I turn around to see Phil has just left his class. He gives Dan a look and turns to walk away from him. I hope they work it out because they look good together. I want to be something with Nash other than what we've been now. I want feelings to be said.

"Cam," A girl yells to me.

"Yes?" I ask confused because they don't normally talk to me.

"Saw you walking out of a gay bar a while ago. Didn't know you were a faggot," she laughed.

Her words snuggled me into their embrace, making me feel shittier than ever.

"Don't cry, go ask you faggot friend Dan to whip your tears. Maybe you'll get dick later if you're a good boy," She says in a kid tone and rubs my hair.

"Don't touch me you bitch," I say grabbing her wrist.

"Eww don't touch me I might get infected!" She laughs and rips her hand from my grasp.

Her friends stood behind her laughing along with her, except one. Others over hear the conversation and I'm suddenly slammed into a locker.

"You queer," a buff boy says pushing me against the locker.