Magcon: Can you feel my heart? // cash

Chapter 36

•Somebody that I used to know•

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Lyrics:

I'll be holding onto you.

Cam's POV:

He's been away for a day now. He hasn't even bothered to call me and tell me that he is alright. I bet his parents don't even notice because they're so worried on their own marriage. I don't think they'll stay together honestly. They argue too much over Nash and what they should do with him. It feels like theres a part of the story that he hasn't told me, that he'll never tell me.

I shouldn't even be this worried about it, but I feel myself falling deeper when it comes to Nash. The thought of him just makes me tingle inside. I guess you know its real when you start to understand all those love songs on the radio. I always hated them, they seemed too cheesy, they always seemed like a lie.

"Cam," My mother called me.

I got up from the couch in the living room and walked to the kitchen, "Yeah?"

"Where is Nash?" She asks tossing the salad in a bowl with two spoons.

"somewhere," I said quietly.

"Why so quiet?" she asked sensing that something was off.

"Nothing," I laughed awkwardly rubbing the back of my neck. She put her spoons in the bowl and walked to me. She put her hand around my shoulders and sat me at the table. "Talk to me," she said in a comforting tone.

I looked away from her for a second and sighed, " I don't know mom. I think I love him." As soon as the l word came out she squealed.

I hid my face in my hands, "Oh god mom."

"No,no I'm sorry. Oh my gosh! My lil cam found his first love!" she said continuing after apologizing for doing it.

"I'm not even sure about it. I don't want to fall in love. I know there is a possibility this won't last because of his past. His soul is just an odd one, but that's what I love about him," I grunted in frustration.

"Just let it happen. It'll hurt and you'll probably be destroyed by it, but at least you got to experience something so beautiful that can only be created by two humans."

"He's out looking for his dead girlfriend's grave, he never got the chance to say goodbye," I explained.

"Don't you think he needs some comforting?" She asked.

"He doesn't love me back, whats the point if i'm not the shoulder he wants to cry on?" I replied.

"I've seen the way he looks at you. That's all I need to know that what you two have is real, and I wish I could have it all over again." she admitted, holding my shoulder tighter and gently pushing me to the side.

"Go after him, he needs someone right now and you're his someone."

I smiled at her cheesy comment and did what she asked. I don't know what he could be doing right now. Nash could be out there crying in the backseat of his car. I went upstairs to grab a sweater and my car keys. As soon as I got in the car I took out the address I wrote down in my phone and put it into the gps.

An hour and ten minutes later I arrived. It was a fairly big cemetery with large spaces between graves. The only disadvantage I have is that I only know her first name. Well, Nash told me her last name before, but I forgot it. I don't know if Nash would still be here after a day.

"Cam?" A voice rang out behind me, the same voice I fell for.

"Nash," I said turning around. His eyes were a bad shade of bloodshot red.

"Come here," I said opening my arms to him. He quickly ran into them, crying like a little kid that had lost his family at an amusement park.

"I want to say goodbye one last time," he said. I nodded in the crook of his neck.

He unraveled himself from me and lead me in the direction of a tombstone that seemed different. As soon as I saw the picture that was placed there I knew why. I've been holding onto her memory for so long.

"I knew her," I said.

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Another short and shitty update :) I'm proud. I start school soon and my updates will either be hella slow or a  two days in a row. If I take a long time to update then lets pray that its a long chapter.

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