Devil Dog MC #6 When a Man Loves a Man

Face to Face

Rocky

    It's been two weeks since Tim was stabbed.  The only good news we have received is that Bea is under the protection of the state.  Things are moving along for Tank and Juniper to get her.  They have relocated to the area so that they are close to the hospital for Bea.  Bea will be having surgery soon since we found a match.  It turns out that a prospect from another club was a match.  I hope Tim wakes up soon so he will know Bea is okay.  I visit him everyday but still no change.  I have stayed at the hotel and Sunshine has too.  She has become a really close friend.  I have talked to her about Tim and my confusing feelings.  Hell, I even told her about my sex dreams which embarrassed the hell out of me.  I have been programmed from birth to believe a certain way.  I know that Sunshine is beautiful and sexy.  She is any man fantasy but no matter how much time I am around her nothing happens.  I am confused but also I am finally trying to figure out who I really am without all the influences. 

     I walked into Tim's room to visit.  I hate seeing him handcuffed to the bed.  I mean he couldn't run away if he wanted to.  The guards can be assholes but the Chief has allowed Tim visitors so there is nothing they can do about it.  I talked to him everyday trying to get him to wake up.  I don't know if he can hear me but I know a lot of people believe he can.  "Tim, Bea is doing good.  She is scheduled for her surgery on Friday.  Can you believe they found a match from one of us losers?  I miss you" I whispered.  I held his hand for the hundredth time hoping for some sign of life.  I know some of the brothers are wondering what is going on with me.  I mean I refuse to go back to the club and I continue to sit with Tim.  I have never been one to show much emotion so this is probably raising a lot of questions.  I spoke my truth to Tim "So I have been going through some things and I wish I could tell you everything but I still don't know what is really happening.  I do know that you mean more to me than anyone ever has.  Damn it Tim please come back to me, I mean us."   The monitor started beeping louder and I thought I felt his hand try to squeeze mine.  "Tim, can you hear me?  If you can hear me squeeze my hand."  I waited and finally I felt it he was squeezing my hand.  I ran out of the room shouting for the doctor.  

Tim

     I can hear someone talking but I can't seem to come out for this deep sleep.  I try my hardest to open my eyes.  I need to know what is happening to Bea.  How long have I been here?  Someone is talking to me.  That's Rocky voice.  I hear him talking about going through things and how much I mean to him.  What is he saying? I heard him tell me to squeeze his hand so I tried to.  I heard him shouting further away from me for the doctor.  Where am I?  Oh shit I got attacked at the jail.  I was stabbed.  Am I dead?  No Ana told me I had to go back to take care of Bea.  Fuck who turned on the lights.  Stop it already that is killing my eyes.  My vision is blurry but getting better.  The doctor is hovering over me with some damn flashlight.   I managed to keep my eyes open longer this time.  I looked around and saw Rocky standing off to the corner.  I tried to asked about Bea but my throat is so damn dry.  I finally managed to get out the words that I need an answer to so that I can feel at peace.  I look toward Rocky and asked "How is Bea?"  Rocky walked over to me and grabbed my hand.  He smiled and said "She is doing pretty well and they found a match.  She is having surgery on Friday.   We were also able to keep Sam from getting her for now."  Oh thank God my baby girl is okay.  I smiled up at Rocky and soon drifted off to sleep feeling like we may come out of this okay after all.

     I have slept off and on for the last three days.  I wanted to see Bea but they refused to let me.  Rocky had a nurse take a picture of her for me to see.  She was snuggled in with her little teddy bear and she looks better than when I saw her last.  I can't help but smile at this beautiful girl.  Ana she is going to make it.  Rocky comes everyday to see me.   He seems different. He explained that most of the club members have went back home.  They plan on coming back tomorrow because of Bea's surgery.  Rocky mentions Sunshine a lot so I guess she is the girl I saw on the back of his bike.  Widow hasn't been by to see me but Rocky said she took this rough and had to get away.  The doctor plans on discharging me in a couple of days so I will be going back to jail.  I am not ready for that at all.  The nurse that took the picture of Bea came in with her phone so that I could record her a message.  I hit record and started my message "Bea Unc Tim misses you and loves you so very much.  I am so proud of how strong you are.  I hope to see you soon but Unc Tim got sick so we can't take a chance of making you sick too.  Butterfly kisses baby."  I handed the phone back to her and cried myself to sleep.

Rocky

     Today is Bea's surgery and I am so nervous for her.  A bunch of the brothers have shown up with Cherry, Juniper and Sunshine.  I was surprised not to see Widow here.  The nurse that's been keeping us up to date reassured us that Bea is doing well.  We all gathered in the waiting room and so do the club members that the prospect is associated with.  The hospital is tired of seeing all of us but so be it.  Fuck em.  Tank comes over to tell me that they say as soon as Bea gets out she should be able to go stay with them.  I can't believe he uprooted his whole family to be closer to the hospital.  The procedure should take about two hours.  I excuse myself and walk down to Tim's room.  I could hear someone talking as I neared the door.  I stopped when I realized it was Widow and Tim talking.  I can't help but overhear.  I should just walk away but I hear my name.  I listen as Tim says "Rocky seems different Widow.  I even felt him holding my hand.  I don't want to get my hopes up because that would be stupid but I can't help but feel that he maybe feeling things for me that I feel for him.  I don't know because he mentions that Sunshine girl a lot.  They seem to spend a lot of time together.  I know when I got arrested as we drove away I saw her on the back of his bike.  I guess I am thinking too much you know?"  Shit I don't want him to think I am interested until I figure out if I am.  I turned and walked back to the waiting area without talking to Tim.  As I walked back in the room Sunshine looked up and furrowed her brows. I just shook my head at her because I am not ready to talk about it.  I took my seat as we waited.  

    Two hours were up three hours ago.  I wish someone would come tell us something.  Widow walked into the room and looked at me strangely.  She looked down at my hands and saw I was holding Sunshine's hand.  Why do I feel guilty she is just trying to help me through this since I am getting agitated?  My attention was brought back to the moment when the nurse walked in.  She was smiling when she told us the procedure went well.  We all were happy to hear this.  I stood up and excused myself so I could go tell Tim.  I walked into his room and he was sitting straight up.  I smiled at him and told him "Bea is good, it went great."  He let out a sigh and said "Ana did you hear that?  Bea is good." Before we could talk further the door was opened and the guards came over to undo his handcuffs. They then told him he was being transported back to jail. They threw some orange jumpsuit shit at him and told me to leave.  I know I can't fight right now but damn if I don't want to.  I told Tim that I would come visit to keep him updated about Bea then I remembered what Tank said.  I chased after them so I could tell him about Bea being able to go live with them as soon as she is well enough.  I saw some of the brothers outside as they took Tim out.  Everyone felt like I did this was so unfair.  Soon they were gone and Tim was going back to the place that almost killed him.  I hope we can get him out of there soon.  

Tim

     I knew the time was coming from me to go back to jail but I feel better about it since Bea will be with Tank and Juniper.  I was thinking about her playing with their kids and what joy it will bring for her.  I looked at the window and realized we were not heading in the right direction.  What they hell is going on?  Did they transfer me to another place?  I tried to ask the officers but they told me to shut up.  Soon I realized that I am in trouble.  I see they have pulled up to an old building that looks to be abandoned.  I am dragged out of the car and pushed inside the building.  I am now standing face to face with that bastard Sam.  I see my parents are also here.  What a lovely family reunion.  I am willing to die today if it means Bea will be safe.  Sam walks over and punches me in the face. I fall to the floor and he kicks me.  Stupid bastard be pissed off, see if I care.  He pulls out his phone and shows me a picture of Bea in the hospital.  Sam ends up telling me that he has people in place to take her as soon as she is safe enough to travel and them stupid bikers will not be getting her.  This can not be happening.

    I can hear Sam talking to someone on the phone.  I know that the nurse who was helping me see Bea is the one helping Sam get Bea.  I thought she was one of the good ones.  I am so bad at judging people.  I hear him mention Rocky's name.  Why is he talking about Rocky?  I listened to his end of the conversation.  I hear him say that Rocky and that girl are at the hotel we have stayed at before.  He said he would pay for whoever can bring him dead or alive.  I don't want Rocky to die because he helped us.  I looked over at my parents wishing that I could make them suffer.  They are so damn drugged right now that they don't even care.  I heard some people coming in the side door and looked over to see a group of young girls being brought in by gunpoint.  What the hell is he doing?