My Life, My Choice

And there another HE in my life

November 27, 2024

Yesterday, I also have talked about me and Nemerson. You know, I have a man already in my life but this guy, our choir instructor just kept on making my life crazy. He's just so charismatic. He's a Libra and we used to have past relationship. He is not handsome. Just tall, intelligent and talented. Despite that he is also broke, I'm just so attracted to him. I don't know. We're vibes and just so attached to each other. I felt like I'm cheating when I was with him. He makes me feel like that.

So I chatted him on Viber. We keep talking about what happened at the General Choir practice. It's just so funny that I made him feel so happy on every move, word and thing that I do. I always surprised him. That's what makes him so intrigued with me. He likes me. He loves me. But I don't do commitment and also I'm with a man now. 

I can't break up with my man. He loves me so much. He gave everything to me. He gave me stability, peace of mind, and growth. He protects me and treasures me. He gives me future and his life. He is just great and perfect to me. I just don't understand what's with this Nemerson that he keeps making me think of him.

I hate myself for this. 

Anyway, other than this Nemerson. My ex-boyfriend who is now taking ministerial course, is still talking to me. He wished that after he graduated, he will marry me. But, you know, I'm not the kind of woman that commits easily. Especially after what he did to me. 

To give you a little bit of background about my past or my ex. He's name is Jerome. We do church duties together. He is a Scorpio. He likes his friends. He got so much friends because he is the best friends of all the people. You can rely on him when you have a problem or a shoulder to cry on.

Then I talked to him. We talked and talked until such time that we got to know a lot about each of us. We fell in love. Then I moved from that place to another place. It takes 6 hours to go to him or for him to go to me. He is far but we keep video calling. 

To cut the long story short, he suddenly got tired of us, our setup. He did not want me calling him because he wanted his time with his friends more than me. He loves his friends than me. We broke up and I was miserable. I was sick that time. Instead of helping me, he hurt me. 

After me, he got a new girlfriend. She used him since he got friends. She wanted to lead one of the church department. So she asked Jerome to help her know all the people. When she got what she wanted, to become a president in one association in the church, she dumped Jerome and started a new relationship with another man. 

Jerome got sick too. He tried contacting me by his sisters and mom. He was so sick that he needs help just to make him get up from his bed. He had a lung problem. His breathings are short. That time, he realized that if only he didn't break up with me, maybe that time, I was with him.

And then here he is again, wanting to marry me soon. 

Today, I have a lover.

Today, I have an admirer.

But TODAY, I have a man.