𝐬𝐭𝐢𝐥𝐥 𝐟𝐚𝐥𝐥𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐟𝐨𝐫 𝐲𝐨𝐮 ✹ 𝐠. 𝐠𝐢𝐛𝐬𝐨𝐧

𝐜𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐭𝐞𝐫 𝐱𝐱𝐢𝐢𝐢 - 𝐭𝐫𝐢𝐜𝐤𝐲 𝐜𝐨𝐧𝐯𝐞𝐫𝐬𝐚𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧𝐬

Gibsie

I didn't have chemistry on Monday at first period. I had literature, all the way across campus and very far away from where Haven's biology class was.

Was I late as fuck? Definitely.
Was the scolding by Mr Hawthorne worth it if I got to see Haven smile and talk to me today? Definitely.

I strolled into the classroom with a 7 minute tardy under my belt and the warning I got to not be playing around this semester was 100% worth it. I would do it a thousand times if it meant spending a second near that girl. It was almost like my body acted on its own accords lately and my brain was too distracted dealing with other stuff to steer myself away. After the party kiss I just stopped trying.

Feely waited for me in the back of the class, doodling some random drawings on his notebook edges while he had a single headphone inside his ear. I could hear the loud guitar and beat from where I sat next to him. "Why so late? And don't give me the "I got lost" bullshit." He asked while he drew details on the girl's hair he was drawing.

"I was busy with something" I grumbled, sinking down into my seat and running a hand through my hair. Feely was a quiet lad and I probably knew 2 things for every 13 he knew about me. He hummed while raising a critical brow and I could see the gears on his head grinding. He always did that when he was secretly judging or thinking too hard about something, it annoyed the shit out of me because it reminded me too much of a person in my life I'd much rather forget.

"Something or someone?" He mused out, still too entranced in the stupid drawing. I let out a sigh and crossed my arms over my chest.

"Something, Feely, something" I breathed out.

"So how's Haven?" He finally quit the doodling and turned to look at me. The tie around my neck suddenly felt too tight even though it was undone. "Wh-what do you mean how's Haven? Haven's fine, why you asking me? Go ask Johnny if you care because why would I know how Haven is." I spluttered out, my voice sounding rushed. Too rushed. I don't know why this topic made me so nervous. I had nothing to hide. Lies. Feely was too perceptive to notice the change in my voice, my posture, body language, and ultimately the whole change in me.

His brow shut up again and I wished I could just wax it off. "Why so nervous? Got something to hide?"
"What? No! You're crazy Feely Jesus" I replied, which earned me a shush from the girl next to me. I shot her an apologetic grin and then turned back to Feely.

"Gibs" he paused "I know you're into her" he deadpanned.

"What?" I spluttered "I'm not into Haven, she's like-like" I struggled to get the words out of my throat.

"Yeah whatever lad" Feely grumbled, popping the headphone back into his ear and just blocking me out. I tried to get his attention. I tapped his shoulder, I bumped his knee with mine, but nothing would get him to pay attention to me. I began to get increasingly frustrated that he wouldn't just tell me where this conversation was coming from.
After like 15 minutes I just gave up trying, he wasn't budging. He never did when he closed off like this. The bell rang and class ended. Me and Feely were the last to leave and just before we parted ways to our classes he pulled me back to face him through my shoulder.

"Just don't hurt her okay? Whatever you have going on with her in secret is none of my business but she doesn't deserve to get hurt" Feely spoke and his voice was as husky as usual.

"Feely I don't have anything with Haven" I lied and it felt natural to deny this, too natural for comfort. I raked my fingers through my hair crossing my arms in front of my broad chest.

Feely raised that same brow I wanted to wax off an hour ago and narrowed his eyes. "Gibs we both know I notice everything too much to just be fooled by you so quit the bullshit" He drawled "I don't care what you do with her, I won't tell Johnny but don't fucking break her heart" He paused and took a deep breath "I just know she likes you and cares about you too much to deserve to be put through shit. I've seen her through the years lad, that girl is probably in love with you"
"Feely-" I tried to speak but he raised his hand and cut me off

"I know you just don't go around breaking people's hearts but I also know you don't spend too much time with one girl at a time. I've seen you jump around situationships with over 10 girls in a year so don't treat her like one of those girls. You and I both know she's worth far too much to get treated like that"
I opened my mouth like a fish to speak but shut it right back off. Feely patted my shoulder and I could only muster a nod and he took a step back "Good man" he mused and just left.

I wanted (and needed) to think so I went to my nice spot behind the school and lit up a cigarette. While I took a draw I thought about what Feely told me.

If he noticed how much longer until everyone noticed too?
Was I really ready to risk my best friendship with her brother for her?
Was I ready to lose her now that I got her?

This was heavy shit, shit I didn't want to deal with. So I put back on my happy face and killed the cigarette with my foot and waltzed back in, hands in my school pant pockets, and walked straight to my next class. People stared, they always did, and I pretended not to notice. Out of the corner of my eyes I saw Haven giggling with her friends to a distance and I knew she saw me, but I pretended I didn't see her.

Johnny waited for me at the class door and we walked in, sitting side by side as always while I pretended not to be plotting to get with his baby sister later while he wasn't at home.

Good shit.

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hi loves! how's everything been? it feels like an eternity since I updated and in all honesty I had half of this chapter written for like 4 days and I couldn't find the time to finish it, but here it finally is. I've been really really into Feely lately sooo I may be brainstorming ideas for a possible feely fic. I'm getting out of school soon which means more updates once I come out but also means slow updates for like a week because I'm in finals.

anyways thanks so so much for reading and don't forget to vote and comment!

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