Not so Enemy? - Porco x Reader

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As Porco rides on the back of the Cart Titan, his thoughts are a tangled mess. The events have left him feeling exhausted, both physically and emotionally. His mind is filled with thoughts of you, regret and uncertainty about the future. He can't help but replay the moments with you in his mind, the pain and the raw emotions you two shared. The memory of your tear-filled eyes as he left haunts him. He wonders if he made the right decision, if leaving you behind was the only option. Porco clenches his jaw, a wave of conflicting emotions washing over him. Guilt, anger, and longing all battle for dominance within him. He knows he made a choice, but the consequences weigh heavily on his heart.

Pieck, in the form as the Cart Titan, interrupts Porco's thoughts with a knowing statement.
„You knew this was how it would end." „Yeah, I knew. But knowing it and experiencing it are two very different things." Pieck gives him a slight nod, her eyes reflecting a hint of empathy. „Yes, knowing something can be much different than feeling it in the moment.", she agrees. „But it doesn't change the reality of the situation, does it?" Porco lets out a sigh, his shoulders slumped in defeat. „No, it doesn't.", he admits. The truth of her words hits him, adding to the weight on his conscience. Pieck remains silent for a moment, watching Porco as he struggles with his emotions. She can sense the inner turmoil he's going through, the conflict between his duty and his feelings for you.

„You chose to follow your obligation, and it comes with consequences. But that doesn't mean you don't care about her." Porco looks up at Pieck, his gaze weary yet slightly less troubled. Her words are not an accusation but rather an attempt to offer some perspective. „I do care about her. More than I thought possible." Pieck nods gently, her expression understanding. „I know.", she responds. „But sometimes, caring can be a double-edged sword. It gives you strength and purpose, but it can also cause great pain."

Porco expresses his inner thoughts aloud,
„Maybe I was too selfish. Believing there could be a different future for us."
Pieck listens intently, silently empathizing with him. He continues, „I do love her, you know. With all the strength of my heart. If there was another way..." Porco trails off, his voice trailing into an uncertain silence. The weight of his feelings, the conflict of duty and desire, hangs in the air between them. Pieck remains silent for a moment. She senses the depth of Porco's emotions and the turmoil they bring. After a few moments, she speaks, „Porco, Sometimes, life doesn't give us the choices we wish for. Sometimes, we don't get the future we want." Porco nods silently, acknowledging the truth in her words. He knows deep down that the path he chose may not lead to the future he desires. „I know but it doesn't make it any easier to accept, though."

Pieck, sensing Porco's sadness, tries to redirect the conversation towards more positive memories. She asks him: „How has your time been here on Paradis, Porco?"

Pieck notices the change in Porco's expression, the hint of a smile that graces his lips when he thinks about his time with you. „There have been unexpected moments..." Porco continues, his voice softer now, his gaze distant. „But Y/N... she's..." He struggles to find the right words, unsure how to describe the impact you had on him during your time on the island. Porco takes a deep breath, „She's changed me. In ways I didn't expect. Just being with her... is like... finding a place to rest, even in the middle of a storm." Porco falls into a brief silence, lost in his thoughts of you. The memory of your warmth and comfort lingers in the air, the ache in his heart made more raw by the thought of leaving you behind.

...

As Pieck brings Porco to their destination, they find themselves approaching a wooded area filled with giant trees. Magath stands there, waiting with Reiner and Colt nearby. Zeke is also present, his presence adding to the already tense atmosphere. Porco dismounts from Pieck's Cart Titan form, his gaze immediately going to Reiner and the others. The sight of Magath and Zeke standing there with Reiner and Colt only serves to deepen the sense of unease he already feels.

Magath steps forward, his expression serious as he addresses Porco. „Welcome back, Galliard.", he says sternly. „We have much to discuss." Porco nods silently, his eyes flickering to the others standing nearby. He knows the conversation that lies ahead will not be pleasant. Magath motions for them to follow him, leading them further into the forest. Reiner and Colt fall into step behind him, while Zeke lingers at the back, his gaze fixed intently on Porco. As they continue walking, Magath turns his attention back to Porco. „How have you been, Galliard?" Porco responds with a shrug, his expression neutral. „I've been fine." He replies steady despite the storm of thoughts and emotions swirling within him. Magath scans Porco's face, searching for any hint of deception or underlying emotion. He can sense the guardedness in his response, the careful way he maintains his composure. „Just fine? You've been on Paradis for some time now. You've had your fair share of challenges. There must be more to say than just fine."

Porco tenses slightly at Magath's questioning. He doesn't want to give too much away, especially in front of Reiner and the others. „There have been challenges, sure. But I can handle them. Everything's under control." Magath scrutinizes Porco closely, sensing the subtle defensive tone in his response. He's aware of the complex emotions Porco is trying to conceal. „Under control, you say but is it really?" Porco grits his teeth, his irritation growing slightly. He knows Magath is pushing him, trying to draw out information he doesn't want to share. „Yes, I can handle it.", he responds. „I don't need anyone's help or concern. I am perfectly capable of dealing with whatever comes my way."

Magath looks directly at Porco and asks bluntly, „What about Y/N?" Porco's eyes flicker at the mention of your name. His heart clenches in his chest, the mere mention of you evoking a maelstrom of emotions. He takes a moment to collect himself before answering, „What about her?" Magath crosses his arms, sensing the effect your name has on Porco. „Don't 'what about her' me. You've been on Paradis, and you've interacted closely with Y/N. I want to know what's happening between you two." Porco's jaw tightens, his irritation with these questions growing by the second. He's not eager to share the complexities of his relationship with you, especially with Magath. „Why does it matter?", he snaps back. Magath's voice takes on a stern tone as he addresses Porco. „I hope you've drawn a line under it. It never stood a chance. It was just a brief distraction that you were allowed, but now it's time to focus on what's truly important."

Porco's annoyance turns into anger. He doesn't appreciate Magath's harsh assessment of his connection to you. „It wasn't just a 'brief distraction'. I care about her. I care about her more than you could possibly understand."

Magath's expression hardens as he assesses Porco's response. He can see the truth in Porco's eyes, the depth of his feelings for you, and it worries him. „You're letting your emotions cloud your judgment.", he admonishes. „You're a warrior, Galliard. Your loyalty and duty lie with Marley, not with some random Paradisian girl." Porco bristles at Magath's words. He clenches his fists, his frustration mounting. „You don't understand.", he snaps back. „It's not just about letting emotions cloud my judgment. Y/N is not just some 'random Paradisian girl'. She's..." He trails off, the words catching in his throat.

Reiner intervenes, placing a supportive hand on Porco's shoulder. „It's alright, Porco." He says in a calmer tone. „You don't need to explain anything to us. But now we need to focus." Porco's anger dissipates slightly, replaced by a sense of resignation. He knows Reiner is right, and he needs to set his personal feelings aside for now. „Yeah. Focus. Got it."