Adelyn

Chapter 25

They say death is supposed to be peaceful, and beautiful. Most say that during death, most people don't feel pain as they go. What they don't tell you is the grief and heartache that come with it. The process of grief hurts people in the process. The people who died may have not felt the pain as they went, but the pain transfers over to their loved ones.

There is 5 stages to grief. Denial, Anger, Bargaining, Depression, and Acepptance.

I don't believe in the stages. I believe grief just comes and goes as it pleases. One second your crying, and in pain. Then your happy and okay. you feel like you will be okay. But then you are reminded of something, reminded of the ones you've lost, then it all just comes and slaps you right in the face.

I grabbed the cup of coffee of the counter and set $5 on the counter before I turned and walked away, not sparing the cashier a glance. I started down at the video of me and Nathan on my phone. In the video we were both happy. We were laughing while he gently tickled me and buried his head in the crook of my neck.

I fought back tears as I went through the pictures and videos of me and Nathan. I slid to a picture. It was of me kissing Nathan's cheek while we sat at a red light. He had a bright toothy grin on his face. I remembered how he didn't want to take the picture but I insisted. I like taking pictures and video's of everything, for moments like this. Memories to look back on.

I got into my car and shut the phone off. I looked at the passenger window, that was once cracked, but has now been repaired since the attack. I started the car and made my way to the hospital.

When I got there I stepped into the elevator and pressed the button to take me to the 4th floor. The elevator shook as it began moving, and I gripped onto the handle bar, keeping my balance.

When the elevator dinged and came to a stop I stepped out and made my way down the hallway. The dim lights gave just enough lighting to see down the hallway. I stopped Infront of the door that Jared was sitting outside of. He made it his point to keep watch and make sure no one showed up.

I gave Jared a soft smile before I opened the door, he returned it with a sad smile while scratching the side of his head.

I walked into the room and softly shut the door behind me. I made my way around and sat in the chair next to the bed. I looked at the body laying in it. His skin was pale, while maintaining a bit of his tan coulor. His black hair was messy, and his grey eyes were not visable. He looked almost peaceful, but he didn't look like himself.

Nathan had been in a coma for the past week after his surgery. He ended up surving but just barely. He had wires and IV's sticking to his body everywhere. He had a tubes attached to his face. It pained me seeing him this way.

I gave his hand a small squeeze but there was nothing in return. His hand felt cold to the touch. I sat quietly in the chair and finished filling out some paperwork for the hospital. The doctor had told me that if I hadn't performed CPR there would be a 98% chance that Nathan wouldn't be here with us. It warmed my heart to hear that, but at the same time I wished I hadn't been given the opportunity to have had to perform it.

The doctors said that everything was looking good and he should be expected to wake up any day now, so now we were just waiting. If the bullet would've traveled further it could've hit his spine and he would be paralyzed. Thank goodness that's not the case.

I finished filling out the paperwork and nurses came by doing checks every couple of hours. I quietly got up and walked out of the room to the front desk. I handed in the paperwork and made my way back to his room.

When I got to the door Marco was sitting outside of it. He stood up straight and fixed his suit when he saw me. I greeted him with a soft smile. "Hello, Marco."