Wintercearig (A Lawlorff fanfiction)

Chapter 1

a/n: hey so this is my first fanfiction so please bear with me. I'm a pretty big O2L fan but I am warning you that not all of this has happened (ie some videos, events, ect) and the timing for everything is mixed up. Just please don't call me out on it because this is my story and it doesn't have to be 100% accurate. Also I'm uploading everything from my phone so I'm very sorry for any grammar or spelling errors. I'll try to edit through them before and after they're posted but mistakes still happen. The last thing before I start the story is that if anyone will make me any sort of cover for this I would appreciate it so very much. Well enjoy!!

DISCLAIMER: I do not own the O2L boys or any other youtuber mentioned in this book and none of this has ever happened that we know of. Story and the idea is all mine (just in case if there is another fic somewhat like it). This is all my own, original work.

Now onto the story.
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"Saaaaam" I hear someone call as I drift into consciousness. "C'mon Sam... let's do something." I immediately wake up as a firm body flops down onto my own.

"Mrmph" I mumble while I'm trying to get the body off of me. I finally open my eyes and take in the scent of the one and only Kian Lawley. He's straddling my waist and I watch as his lips move, still not alert enough to pay attention to the words he's saying.

"... you even listening?" Kian says and I take note of how close our faces are.

"Hmm?"

"I said.. do you wanna come over and hang out with me and the guys today?"

"Oh, uhh sure. Just lemme get ready first."

"Okay!" Kian says and jumps a little on my groin. I moan in 'annoyance'. He doesn't get off of my lap and I don't mind but if he wants me to go and chill with the others then...

"Um, Ki? Could you uh.. you know.. get off of me?"

"Oh yeah, of course." He stutters and leaves my lap to pounce down onto my bed while I retreat to the shower so I can start to get ready. After my shower, I get dressed and do all that needs done for me to look presentable. I drag Kian downstairs and we leave to the O2L house.

Once we arrive, I feel the familiar sense of welcome that always comes with visiting my best friends. I immediately jump our of Ki's car and run inside to talk to JC. He's the only one who knows 2 of my three secrets.

He knows that I'm gay. He knows that I'm completely in love with Kian. However he doesn't know that I cut myself nearly every night.

By the time I reach the door to Jc's room, I have to stop for a moment to catch my breath before I open his door and burst into years. He hugs me and lets me cry like a child into his shoulder. He's not surprised by my actions as this happens quite often. I cry, he comforts. After my tears subside I open my mouth and thank him right before we're interrupted by a knock on the door. It opens and Ricky's head pops around the wood.

"We're having a house meeting. It's crucial that Sam comes as well." is all he says before vanishing and shutting the door.

"You think you can handle this?" Caylen asks and I give a weak nod. "Ight, lets go on down then." We slide off of his grey comforter and I lead him down the stairs where we enter the living room for the routine house meeting. They're nothing huge just the guys getting together to discuss problems in the group or big news with O2L. I've attended quite a few and Trevor has as well considering our presence is sometimes required.

"Okay, now, that we're all here, the meeting is, officially in session. First things firsts, the proposition. Sam, we need to ask you a very pressing question." Ricky starts and I feel my palms begin to sweat and my throat tightens. I nod for him to continue but Kian takes over by sliding down beside my place on the floor. "Sammy, the four of us would love it if you would move in with us now that you're older."

"I mean, i'd love to! I just uh, I don't want to burden you guys more than I already have like I don't want to just slob around your guys' house that the worthless person that I am--" I'm cut off by a slap across the face. I notice it came from the side that Kian was on and I feel my cheeks heat up.

"Don't you ever fucking say those things about yourself again. Do you hear me?" He says staring at me with his rich chocolate orbs. I nod, not trusting my voice. " We love you okay? You would never be a burden to us, ever,  and you are the farthest thing from worthless that I can imagine. God just, don't say those kind of things."

I feel myself melt at his words as I nod again. "So he's moving in with us, no ifs, ands, or buts" Ricky says confidently and I just give a soft smile still dazed by Kian's words. "Now,the second matter of business, we need to start doing more collabs by the fans request. Not just whoever we wanna." He says with a sigh.

"Question. Can we still do collabs with who we want as long as we still do the ones that the fans want?" Connor asks with his hand raised.

"Well duh silly! They can't control everything we do." Ricky jokes and looks at his laptop screen again, probably at the document made for this meeting. "Lastly, who's going grocery shopping tomorrow? I went last Thursday so it's not going to be me."

"I mean, I can do it. Lia's coming over tomorrow night though so I'll have to go before she gets here." JC says with a shrug. Before you even stay to think it, I am not into JC. At all. I'm kind of obsessed with Ki if you can't tell and I think Jia us thee cutest couple. JC plans in proposing soon and I cannot wait. Kiandrea on the other hand is one of the worst relationships, in my opinion of course, but they lack any chemistry and I honestly don't think Andrea is good enough for Ki. I know that I'm not either but she's just so ugh. How can he even like her? She's so--

My thoughts are cut off by Ricky's voice dismissing us. I stand up and start moving toward the stairs, planning in going to JC's room and passing out but I'm stopped by Kian's, hand circled around my wrist. I feel a few cuts reopen but I ignore the stinging for Kian.

"Whatchya need?" I ask politely and he releases me.

"Well since you're moving in I figured we could go back to your's and start packing?" He suggests and looks at me with puppy dog eyes that I fall for everytime.

"Lets go then!" I say enthusiastically. I basically drag him as I sprint to his car, ecstatic about moving in with my best friends. I'm already buckled in and fidgeting by the time he opens the door.

"Ready?" He asks me.

"Ready."