Wintercearig (A Lawlorff fanfiction)

Chapter 7

··|Sam's POV|··

"Sam! Time for breakfast!" Kian yells. I just got out of the shower that's in Ki's insuite bathroom and now I'm dressing. I look in the mirror on the back of that door.

Disgusting. You're so fucking disgusting. Do you really want to look even worse? Do you really think Kian wants someone as fat as you are?

I grab at the fat hanging off of my hips. Euck. How did he even carry me yesterday? I turn away from the mirror and finish getting dressed. I run downstairs and into the kitchen. From what I can tell Kian's shirt is hanging off of Andrea's thin body, nearly covering her tiny yoga shorts and Ki's only in some grey sweats.

Kian's putting some food on some plates and Andrea's standing behind him with her arms wrapped around his muscular torso.

Yesterday doesn't change anything. You're still worthless. She's still perfect. He's still happy.

I sigh and feel my throat tighten. I hold back the tears as I take a seat at a bar stool farther from the two with drinks already in front of them. Apparently my weight was too much for the stool as it makes a squeaky sound when I sit. I grimace. The domestic couple turns towards me and I give a small smile. Kian returns one with sympathy and concern whereas Andy's is one of annoyance.

"Morning" I grumble.

"Morning, Sammers. The food is done I just have to put the sausages on your plate." Kian says kindly.

Think of how greasy sausages can be, Sam. Do you really want to gain all of that weight?

I look down at my body again. Am I really that fat?

"Thank Ki-Kian. I'm not hungry though." I almost slip his nickname but I correct myself.

"Sam, you're going to start eating. I'm not going to let you whither away to nothing, alright?" He says moving toward me with a plate of pancakes, sausages, eggs, and fruit salad.

That's way too much for you Sam. You'll gain like 90 pounds.

I pull at my sweater sleeves and sigh at the plate of food in front of me. I realize that Kian and Andrea are seated at stools with juice in front of them. Kian's feeding Andrea and Andrea's feeding Ki. Just like we were doing yesterday morning. Fuck. I feel some tears fall as I cut every part of my breakfast into tiny pieces, not eating a single bite. I'm about to ask to be excused but Andrea cuts me off.

"Babe, can we go to the movies? I really want to go see that new chick flick." I hear Andrea beg Kian after about ten minutes of me pushing my food around.

"Of course. Go on upstairs and get ready. We'll all leave in an hour." He agrees and pecks her lips before she thanks him and bounces up the stairs. I feel his eyes linger on me.

"Stop staring." I grumble after a few moments.

"I will once I see you eat an adequate amount." He says with a harsh undertone. My cheeks heat up making then turn even darker than their normal red.

"I have." I lie.

"No you haven't. You've just been playing with your food." My eyes water. I don't want to because i'm

fat.

"Sam, look at me." He's right beside me now. Reluctantly, I obey and look at Kian's stunning features. "You need to eat babe. Because i'm worried that someday you're going to be nothing but bone and well, everybody knows that skeletons are the remains of the dead. So please. Sammers, eat for me." He hugs me as he's talking and I feel so content that i'm basically purring.