Wintercearig (A Lawlorff fanfiction)

Chapter 6

a/n literally just chapter 5 but in

··|Kian's POV|··

"Where are we going?" Sam asks me for what seems like the billionth time. He starts pouting and I comment to myself about his luscious lips. I imagine kissing them roughly, biting them even, before I remember to respond.

"I'm not telling you Sammy. It's a surprise!" I say with a smile. He puts his bottom lip out even farther and I have to force my attention back onto the road. I give a small 'humph' and give him my right hand so he can touch it and hold it so he calms down.

I made plans with my mother for Sam, Andrea, and I to stay for the duration of O2L's mini vacation that we all seem to be on. Andrea can't come until tomorrow but I'm actually super okay with it because it means that Sam and I can have some more alone time (a/n ;)). We finally arrive back to my old house and I feel a wave of nostalgia wash over me.

"Okay, we're here." I say when I stop the car. "I know it's not anywhere special I just thought it would bring back some good ole Lawlorff memories." I use our old ship name and laugh as I take off his blindfold.

He snorts and I panic. Does he not want to be here? My internal thoughts are silenced by his next statements. "Kian.. This place is extremely special. Now lets go!!!" He jumps out of the car and runs into my house and I follow his lead. "Mama?!" I hear him yell and I follow his voice. I don't know if he hears me come up behind him because he's so caught up with my mother.

"Sam?! I miss you, you haven't been over in... forever. What ever happened?" She asks, as they share a hug.

I think about her question and lean against the wall on my side. What did happen? Sam and I.. We've been so distant lately.. I'll have to talk to him about it later.

"Been busy." I hear him mutter. My mother looks back and makes eye contact with me before whispering in Sam's ear.

After I see him nod I grab him and take him somewhere even more special to us. Ou- my room.

"We'll be upstairs!!" I yell to my mother hoping that I can catch up with her some later.

I walk into my room,and take a quick glance around before I feel Sam fall some. I become concerned within 2 milliseconds. Did he forget to take care of his diabetes? Is his blood sugar okay? Does he need insulin? My mind races and I finally embrace him and carry him to my bed.

"Hey, hey. You alright Sammers?" I ask and sit him on my bed. A tear slides down his face and he responds by flinging himself onto me. I can't say I mind.

Sam curls himself into my chest and I instinctively wrap my arms around him even tighter. "Yeah. I just... Fuck. I miss this so much...Kian.. I miss you so much. Fuck." I start to crumble under his words and try to find words to respond with but then he starts sobbing.

I know how to handle this. I whisper some sweet nothings,into his ear and tell him the surprises. "Sam, babe.. You'll be okay.. We'll be okay.. I miss you too ya know? I uh.. I made plans to stay here for about four days.. If uh, if you wanna stay." He quickly nods and scoots closer to my chest and groin might I add. "Oh thank god. I thought you'd make me drive all the way back to the O2L house tonight." I laugh and he loses some tension. I decide to risk it and tell him the second part. "We have all day to ourselves and then Andrea wants to come and meet my family tomorrow.. uh. She'll be staying for the rest and she'll be going home with us if all of that's okay with you?" His shoulders tense back up. Fuck. "I can tell her not to come of you want me to. I'll understand, Sammers" I say trying to fix what I've done.

He shakes his head and mutters out "No, it's fine. I just thought.. I thought it was just going to be us." I punch myself on the inside.

"Damn.. We will do something just the two of us all by ourselves once we get back. I promise. Alright?" I make him look into my eyes because I mean it and he needs to know. I start getting lost in his eyes and I have to stop myself from thinking that they're more beautiful than Andy's. But just between me and you... They are. Times a thousand. Times a billion.