Wintercearig (A Lawlorff fanfiction)

Chapter 14

··|Sam's POV|··

4 days. I have been alone for four days.

I'm currently sitting in my room, alone of course, in my boxers, just tracing every new cut I've made in the past few days. They're so many.

The boys should be arriving home soon. They are all going out for lunch from the airport but seeing as I didn't leave, nor do I feel like eating, I just sent a lie in the group chat saying that I got an earlier flight and to go on without without me. They might need to in more ways than one.

··|Kian's POV|··

Andy and I are on our way to the Panera on 6th Street to have lunch with o2L, minus the girls. I think I'm most excited to see Sam though.

Speaking of, I wonder how he's doing. I guess I was a but harsh on him but that was simple, meaningless sex. We've never even kissed. And I'm not gay.

"It was fun hanging out with your family. Do you think they like me?" Andreas's chirpy voice brings me out of my daze.

No, when you went to bed they talked about how much better Sam was for me and I agree. Is what I want to say but I settle with a "I think so" and open the restaurant door for her. She giggles her previously cute but presently annoying giggle and we head to our usual table to meet the boys.

"Kian, hey finally! Now we're all here!" JC jumps up to find me a bro hug. I look around the table, eyes searching for my best friend but he's nowhere to be seen.

"Hey aha, where is Sam? Is he in the restroom or?" I ask and all of the laughter and greetings die down. Oh no. They're all starting at me with blank looks. No.. He wouldn't have.. He didn't.. I can't breathe until Ricky mumbles about an earlier flight and then repeats it at my request.

"Thank God, I thought he was like gone or something.." My voice cracks and JC hugs me again.

We all take our seats when a waitress arrives. "My name in Lydia and I'll be your waitress today, have you guys decided on beverages yet?"

"Uh, yeah, I'll have a pink lemonade." Connor starts and we then go around telling her what we want. The same thing occurs when our drinks arrive and she asks what we want to eat. We all make small talk about our holiday during the whole dinner before we give out farewells to the girls and Trevor.

Once we return to the o2l house I try to escape the others to go talk to Sam but I'm stopped by Ricky asking me to go get my laptop so we can perfect the bachelor party plans. I go upstairs so I stop by Sam's door to knock and let him know I'm home. He mumbles an okay and I want so badly to run into his room and hold him as close as I can, mumbling sweet nothings to him.

However, these plans need made. I take my laptop to the kitchen and sit at one of the bar stools until Connor comes in and kicks me out to prepare some stupid pasta meal. From there, I go into our living area and wait for Ricky to come join me.

"Kiannn, can we cuddle? I miss you." I hear JC say from the entrance. He's standing there in some sweats and a tee with a look of disappointment so of course I let him.

"Yeah, just don't be too antsy, wedding planning.." I sigh as he waddles over and throws himself on the couch, directly into my side.

"You guys still aren't done? You're getting married in literally ten days." He comments.

He's right though, the day is getting closer and my doubts are becoming larger. "Just finishing touches.. The bachelor party is all done though. This weekend!!" I exclaim and shake him slightly. He whimpers so I let him cuddle me.

By the time Ricky is ready to finish the wedding planning, JC and I are completely cuddling. With him still next to me, the planning gets into full swing.