Wintercearig (A Lawlorff fanfiction)

Chapter 19

(a/n make sure you've read Chapter 18 before continuing or you might be confused)

SAMS POV

"What about the kiss?" Kian asks me.I decided to confront him about the action of admiration but he acted like it was no big deal.

"Like.. Why?" I ask, confusion swirling around my head while he continues nonchalantly scrolling through his Twitter mentions.

"I don't know, it was an impulse. Not like it meant anything. I'm just lonely since Andy and I broke up." He mutters and I feel my eyes well up.

"Okay, sorry I asked. Do you maybe wanna go grab some lunch with me?" I ask hopefully but he mutters a small no thanks and I bow my head and waddle away.

"Hey Ki! Do you want to go out for lunch with me?" I hear JC yell from the lounge. He better not...

"Yeah, give me ten and I'll be ready!"

You've got to be kidd-

"Sam, do you wanna come too?" JC adds and I nod before yelling affirmation when I realize he can't see me.

After we're all dressed and ready to go, we pile into Kian's car. Of course he's driving, JC gave me shot gun and he placed himself behind Kian.

"So where to sir?" Kian asks JC in a fake posh voice.

"To the buffet on ninth street my good man" JC replies in an equally preposterous tone. They both laugh and I join in but unfortunately you can tell it's fake.

"So Sam, have you talked to that Acacia chick anymore recently?" JC asks encouragingly.

I wanted to say yes so bad to tick off Kian and maybe see if he gets jealous, however, I don't need him questioning me so I stick with telling JC the truth. "No, we haven't talked since I got home. Maybe I'll call her later and see what she's up to." I say humbly and look down at my thumbs which lie against the other. And when I'm looking at my thumbs, another thumb comes to join, Kian's.

He begins to talk as his hand fumbles mine into a holding position. "Sam, babe, I thought we agreed on letting her go. She's not good for you." He says passive aggressively.

"Oh yeah, sorry. I forgot" I give up before looking up to smile at Kian.

"Fuck, look at that line!!" JC yells from the backseat and we put our focus onto the mass of people outside the buffet; it would take over an hour to get in with how busy they are. "There goes that idea." He sighs and we park to brainstorm more ideas.

Kian starts us off with "We could just get fast food"

Oh heck no, "There's a subway not too far from here?" I suggest.

"Panera?" JC jokes.

"There's a little cafe I know of a couple blocks away, shouldn't be busy?" Kian suggests quietly.

After arriving, we go to the counter to order. JC  orders a tea, muffin and a club sandwich.  Kian follows suit and orders the same amount. I, myself, however simpler order a chocolate scone with some hot cocoa. I feel Kian's eye me but I continue glancing around the small store. After a few minutes we're told to pay. Before I can grab my wallet Kian pays for both my meal and his while JC is stuck paying for his own. We grab our food and make our way to a quiet table near the window.

"So Kian, found a new girl yet?" JC asks after we've sat down.

"Uh yeah actually." What. "I've been talking to that model from the VMAs for a couple weeks. I've been meaning to meet up with her but I don't have the time." He shrugs and I look down at the table with confusion. Why didn't he tell me?

"Nice one, if Lia and I weren't as serious as we are I would think that model was hot as fuck" JC commented. "What do you think of her?" JC directed the question to me.

"Oh uh, I don't know who we're talking about.." I trailed off.

"Oh. Anyway, Lia and I are looking for two more people to go mini golfing with this weekend and we were thinking about a double date kinda thing if you want to bring her." He redirects his attention to Kian.

"Sounds like a blast, I'll ask her." Kian smiles and small talk overwhelms us for a qualitative amount of time.

Near the end of the meal, I excuse myself and escape to a restroom stall to regurgitate the calories. No one had to know. I'm still eating. No one said I had to keep it down.

Back at the o2L house, Christmas decor was beginning. As soon as we arrived we were given tinsel and wreaths to decorate for the holidays. Thankfully, the majority of the hard work was done because the tree was up and we only had one more box of sparkly lights and twinkling ornaments.

After finishing touches, the boys and I were ready for holiday cheer and decided to have a Christmas movie marathon. Of course, there were snacks and many many blankets. Ricky had stolen the love set, Trevor, Connor and JC all shared the couch and that left Kian and I space on the recliner which we gladly accepted. With my body firmly pressed against his, I watched the classics.

Halfway through Santa Clause 2, I noticed Kian drifting to sleep. I didn't want to sleep alone but I also didn't want to have to wake him up down here so I nudged him to get his attention.

"Hey Kian, bedtime?" I smile and he nods.

Leading me upstairs, Kian has his hand around my waist and surprises me when we enter his room by picking me up entirely and placing me on the bed.

I watch as he strips from his clothes to his boxers and then I do the same. I leave on my tshirt so he doesn't feel my rolls of fat as prominently. He climbs in beside me and becomes the big spoon as we drift to sleep.

a/n idk anything anymore but lol this is the worst chapter I have ever written srry