Wintercearig (A Lawlorff fanfiction)

Chapter 18

Sam's POV

I wake up to a soft light coming from blinds that were left open carelessly. I let my eyes flutter open and adjust to the light before I yawn and stretch out just slightly. Unfortunately, I'm still in a great lot of pain so the stretch makes me yelp quietly.

However, not silent enough.

"Good morning, Sam. How long have you been up?" Kian asks in his morning voice, looking at me though curved lashes and sunshine.

"Not long, I just woke up a few minutes ago actually. We forgot to shut the blinds last night." I giggle and he does too before gracefully leaping out of bed to close the curtains and let the shade fall upon us. I giggle a little more when he comes back to wrap his entire body around mine.

" Let's cuddle for a bit, it's not even 10 AM yet." He days dreamily and I am in no place to deny him.

...

After about and hour, we finally decide to get up and be productive. After eating a small brunch and taking my meds, Kiwi and I decide to make a video, just the two of us; like the good ole days. At least that's what I thought

I'm in the middle of setting up the tripod when Kian enters the room with JC, both laughing more than the common. I decide to interrupt them..

Quite rudely, to be honest.

"Uh, hey Kian. Our stuff is set up, whenever you're ready." I say with a smile so he doesn't see my annoyance at the sight of "Jian"

"Okay, JC can join us too, right?" He asks kindly so of course I can't say no.

The video is a simple q/a on Twitter and goes fairly well despite the obvious third wheel split. However, I say nothing as I know that they are better off without me.

Exactly, better off without you. Go now. While they're busy editing.

I try not to listen to the voice in my head but ultimately I do and end up trudging up the stairs to a room containing Connor. I lay beside him and we cuddle almost as if we were cats. But larger. This is what I love about Connor. He's simple. He doesn't ask questions that he knows could be complicated and he doesn't question when he knows it's unsafe. He's safe. He's caring in the most careless way. He's like a pillow. That talks and eats and sleeps. He Connor.

We lay there for quite some time before Kian finally realizes my dismissal and comes searching for me. After seeing me with Connor, however, he turns away without any words.

"Are you guys okay?" Connor asks quietly.

"Yeah, we're okay." I say truthfully. Of course we're going to have ups and downs, this one is even a small one.

"Do you want to go to him?" He asks.

"Yes." I answer impulsively and so Connor carefully lifts out position from the lounge cushion to a standing position. I wander down the hall and into Kian's room where he and JC and lying down on his bed with some movie playing in his laptop.

"Uh, um, hey Ki." "JC.. What are you guys watching?" I ask quietly and paddle my way over to the headboard so I can see the screen; it seems to be something by Nicholas Sparks, maybe The Vow.

"The Lucky One, wanna join?" JC asks kindly and I nod slightly. "Well then come on, join!" He says enthusiastically and nudges over so I have space to lay beside him.

The movie seems fairly interesting and I am engrossed in the pixelated story until I hear a quote.

"You should be kissed everyday, every hour, every minute." Both the character on the screen and Kian says simultaneously. I glance over to my beautiful best friend.. While he's glancing at his. However JC is staring back at his best friend and I'm left alone. I push my bad thoughts to the side and throw my attention back to The Lucky One.

Many tears and intense scenes later, the movie is over. Thankfully JC excuses himself to attend previously scheduled events and then we were alone. I make the first move and roll over to become squished next to Kian. When he looks down at me as if to ask /what to the heck are you doing/, I make a silly face. He laughs a little and I do the same.

"What did I ever do to deserve you?" I ask lightly when our fits of laughter cease. He responds not with words but a soft, natural, reassuring, perfect kiss that made the day's conundrums all worth it.

He makes it worth it.

a/n: months later... hey guys so I updated but idk like this sucks so fucking bad and I'm sorry.. I'm so sorry

xoxo, h