Profile//Spencer Reid//Criminal Minds

Chapter Thirteen

I could only remember a few things when I woke up.

I knew my past life and my name.

I don't remember joining the BAU.

I don't remember falling in love with the guy with the glasses.

I don't remember being muscular.

I don't remember moving to the city.

All I remember is being with to Connor and about to go to law school.

I remember my parents being murdered.

I remember Gideon.

I remember Connor.

I remember wanted to be a lawyer.

I don't know who I am.

"Sarah. It's really good to see you." A man with glasses and a short brown hair with a coat on says.

"How are you feeling?" A woman asks me.

"My head hurts." I say.

"I'll get you something for that." She says.

"Was anyone else hurt?" I ask the guy with the glasses. He furrows his eyebrows and looks at me funny.

He sits beside me and reaches for my hand, which I pull away.

"Sarah, do you know who I am?" He asks.

"You're my doctor." I state.

"Sarah, I'm your boyfriend." He says, looking at me.

I feel like I'm about to throw up. My heart is beating really fast. My head hurts. I feel nasuea.

Shock. It's called shock.

When you feel your heart beating out of your chest and you can't breath.

My head is swimming with different thoughts. I don't know whether to cry or scream.

My life was sntached away from me, from my mind, from my heart. All I can remember is the night, one face and one name.

It was the end of the day, turning in for the night, almost finished with a case. I got in the car, with someone, someone who I cannot place, I got out of the car and started going into the hotel when someone grabs my from behind and throws me into a van. I reach for a gun- which I didn't know I had- before getting it snatched from me. I looked up at the two people in the van. One was driving while the other was holding my gun on me.

"Sarah, Sarah, Sarah." He shakes his head.

"You know my name, return the favor." I say quietly.

"My name is Frankie Hankel." He smirks.

Why is Hankel so familar?

I can't remember everything, only gaps, but this group of people that call themselves 'My Team' are helping me put it together.

They've been putting so much stress on me, I had to leave yesterday.

My grandents came, then a guy name Reid, my boyfriend I'm assuming, fussing about what life I should go back too.

"I wanna go home with Spencer." I said quietly.

"Sweetheart, you can only remember your old life, come back with us."

"That's the problem, she's supposed to get in the habit of her regular day, she can only do that if she's home with me."

"Who are you again?"

"I'm Spencer, Sarah's boyfriend."

I remember when he first tol me, I freaked, I don't remember falling in love with him. I don't even remember meeting him.

"You're my doctor."

"Sarah, I'm your boyfriend."

"W-what? I don't have a boyfriend. I'm engaged to Connor."

"You left him before you joined the BAU. Where we met," he reached for my hand again. "Where we fell in love."

I could hear them screaming in the next room, asking out whether or not I will ever remember. That guy who calls himself my boyfriend, was screaming, I could hear his voice crack before everything went silent.

7 days. I was asleep for 7 days. Reid never left the hospital.

Until today, I left to rediscover my life with him, to our apartment. He explained how it was really his but I stayed over so much I moved in and sold my other apartment.

It was...cozy. Gave me a warm and inviting feeling. Instead of being confused and disoriented for the first, I was relaxed. I smelled like a mix his cologne and coffee. It made something...tingle inside of me.

"We sleep in a bed together, then we take the couch." He says.

"No, if we uh sleep together, then we will," I say quietly. "I mean old habits right?"

I settled in bed beside him. I picked up the book that was sitting on the table. "This is my side?"

"Yeah, this the book you were reading, it's about a man filled with tattoos and at night the tattoos come to life and tell stories." He explains relaxing beside me.

"Sounds weird," I chuckled. "How did we meet?"

He smiles softly before saying, "You were a new team member after Gideon left, so at first we would finish each other sentences, then you uh got hurt really bad, and I didn't know if you were gonna wake up or not, so I admitted my feelings for you-"

"That's kinda cute."

"But, I uh left, because of Maeve, but you hated me, we fought, but later I came to your apartment, we-" He does a strange motion with his head. "We, you know."

I fell asleep a few hours later.

"Please, don't." I begged.

"I'm sorry but I have too, sweetheart." He moves a piece of hair from my face.

I was crying, tears were running down my face, I was shaking. I was scared.

"Please, I didn't have anything to do with what happened between you two."

"Sweetie, you're the revenge," he smirks. "Your lovely boyfriend killed my brother, it's just collateral damage."

"Please." I sobbed as he set the two metal knobs on each side of my forehead. "I love him."

"Goodnight love." He says as he presses the red button that send electrical bolts through my brain.

I jolted awake, sweat beating down my forehead, not being able to breath.

"Hey, you okay?" Reid asks from beside me.

"It was- it was Hankel." I breathed.

"I know, I know." He brushes my hair.

"What did you do to him?"

"I think we should get back to bed."

"So, I don't even get a reason to why I can't remember anything?"

He ignores me.

"My old life if sure as hell better than this one."