jar of hearts (a poetry story)

i said i wouldn't, but i did

last week,
i said i wouldn't look at your shit anymore,
cause i knew it would make me sick to my stomach
and
i would get that feeling in my chest that isn't pleasant

i cheated,
i relapsed,

i looked at everything you have online,
i looked at your snapscore

and boy,
did it not make me feel good

i promise,
a promise to me

and my heart,

i won't do this anymore,
i will move on
and find better

i will love again,
and i hope this will be my last love next time

no more heartbreaks,

i said i wouldn't,
but i did

and never will i do it again