jar of hearts (a poetry story)

this is why i lied

whether you lie,
small or big

a lie is a

lie

i had my fair share of being dishonest,
for the sake of protecting myself

this is an apology to myself,
i could of went so maybe routes but chose the ways i had the hardest time climbing

i lied,
because i didn't want you to hate me,

apart of me now knows that,
you weren't worth anything to begin with

i lied because,
i thought i could love you even though everytime we kissed i thought about him

i lied,
not just to you,
but to my family with whom i regret

i lied because,
i didn't want you to know the truth within my past,
it's a dark matter,

which can never be spoken about ever again

i lied because,

i loved you