A broken soul with one sentence

1. Chatrooms and my life

After months playing a game on my phone and getting to know some regulars in it, I decide to get Line. Line is like kik or messager, a chat app. Anyway as I do so I join a group chat for regulars and months pass again. The chat start to disappear by people not chatting anymore, at this time I join a guild with some regulars and a new group chat just for guild members. I get to know most of the people and we become friends.

Everything is fine in my virtual world, my real life tho is hard and I have been in a depression for over a year now. And some months ago I got the diagnos Asbergers. I haven't hurt myself or anything like that because of a promise I made to myself then I just had turned 15 years old. I don't think I should tell the promise I made tho. I'm taking anti depression medicine and sleep helping pills, so most of the time I hide myself in a made up personality that is nice always happy and kind of a happy-go-lucky person. Still I have my up and downs. You can say that I get like cry or panic attacks sometimes.

And this time I am alone in my room crying, I need help to clam down. So I go on Line and to the old group chat, writing that I'm having a cry attack and need to talk to someone. After some minutes one respond and we pm (private massage) till I stop crying around one hour later. The Guy who I talked to had been through a lot himself and really understood me, he became like a mental support for me and I look up to him a lot. In this story I will call him Adam. Afterwards I look at other messages and see another pm with a boy I don't know much about. As I look at it, it seems like he also saw my text earlier and want to help. I said thank you and that I was glad but that I had already talked to someone else. I name this boy Yuki.

As days goes by the first chat has been livelier and I chat with Adam and some others. Things get more stable in my real life but I don't go to school so my grades are dropping.

I have two best friends in real life that are my age and that support me in everything. I'm gonna call the first girl Ada, we have been through life together since kindergarten. Not many hobbies in common but we are like sisters, fighting, crying and laughing together. The other girl I name Jenna, she is like my twin almost everything I like she likes. I think we don't have a strong emotional bond but a lot in common and hobbies. So yeah life is alright at the moment.

One day then I'm talking about one of my hobbies that is Vocaloid, in the first chat. The boy Yuki says that he like that too. Following by that is me and Yuki texting for hours about Vocaloid in pm. It turns out we also have a lot in common, even the same lucky numbers. Many times we ask each other 'how did you know that' or 'wow this is creepy' or something like that. Some days after that we decide to rename our chat names to the twins in Vocaloid, I'm the female twin Rin and Yuki is now the male twin Len. God we had so fun those first days then the people in the chat was mixing us up because we changed to the same last name. And our pictures were of the twins, so it was hard to tell us apart.

I began to mentality feel better and happier. I even was in school some days, getting drowned in hellos, long time no sees and wow you look different comments. And a little unwillingly getting some hugs from people I can call my friends. Also getting some stares because I look different, I have my own style and taste in clothes and so on.

Back in my virtual world the guild chat is getting more annoying then fun sometimes but I still like the people there. In the first chat on the other hand is really fun and we talk about hobbies, likes and dislikes and so on. And like always, time continue.