A broken soul with one sentence

16. What the hell happened?

So how has my year been? I don't think I can describe it with just one word. For me it had some of the happiest moments of my life but also some of the worst in my life. It feels like life doesn't like me most of the time. I mean if I told myself from spring last year what would happen, I don't think I would believe it. How happy I would be or how sad I would be. I was depressed from way before, talked to people on internet. Got a boyfriend, got to know my boyfriend was a Dad. More depression, I broke up with my boyfriend. Tried to fix things with him, then I got cheated on. I think I got a slightly bit of phobia for babies now. I'm even more afraid of growing up. I break apart easier now, crying more often.

I think that after all this year, I've gotten trust issues, phobias, anxiety attacks, a slightly bit of insomnia and what else? Yeah a totally crushed heart. I had at one point given up at love, but now I don't know.

Why did all this have to happen to just me? I think I'll never get the answer to that.

I can just say, life isn't always a happy place. And then you run away through internet, it can get even worse.