A broken soul with one sentence

14. Go to heaven bastard

A month have soon passed since Yuki and I broke up. Everything is okay, I chat, I sleep, I'm alive. Yuki and I still try to find a solution so we can be together, we still love each other. Or at least I think so, I'm not so sure anymore.

Some day later Xris texts me and it's really worrying.

Xris: Are you still with Yuki? If you are he is cheating, Bye.

I got so confused, but I got more worried about that 'bye' than that Yuki might be cheating. I tried many times to talk to Xris, but he didn't even see the messages. I asked Onii to both keep an eye on Yuki and to look for Xris.

One day later Xris answered, I felt relieved. Then after I got to know that Xris had deleted Line, I asked about Yuki. He said Yuki had cheated on me all along, all the time since Xris got to know him. With different people and different places. I began to think back, and I can't say that it isn't true. I asked Onii since I didn't trust Xris on the word. But Onii confirmed it with a yes.

I felt so betrayed, so weak. Onii and Xris both said to break contact with Yuki, but I didn't want to, not just like this. I wanted to catch him in the act. Xris said that Yuki were texting with someone in an empty chat ingame. So I went there to see.

I saw them clearly flirting with each other. I waited a while, then I got so angry and revilied that I was there. Then I told that Yuki was cheating he denied it completely, saying that we had broken up. We did break up, but our relationship was complicated. We still loved each other, saying 'I love you' every time we talked. Just four days ago Yuki last told me he loved me. And now 'we broke up' was his only argument. Saying he got together with this girl as of yesterday. It really hurt but I was more angry.

Then Yuki and I continued to talk on Line. We were both spitting words at each other, but I had the facts.

Yuki: We weren't together.

Me: But still u said u loved me??

Yuki: I'm done arguing.

Me: Player.

I try to agg him on, I would say a lot of bark but no bite. It goes back and though. But then after avoiding my questions and then I point it out, Yuki says that he answered them all. He asks me to ask again then.

Me: Why aren't you a player?? Say it without mentioning ' we broke up before' stuff.

And now there is dead silence, minutes pass by. I tell Onii and Xris how it's going. And after fifteen minutes of silence Yuki answer.

Yuki: Yes Jun you're right I'm a player, I'm sorry I hurt you.

And at that my mind started boiling. I immediately asked if he got help, and Yuki exploded with caps lock.

Yuki: GOD DAMN IT JUN WILL NOTHING I SAY SATISFY YOU! I'M REPENTING THAT I'M NOT ASKING FOR FORGIVENESS, I'M ADMITTING TO MY WRONGS WHAT MORE DO YOU WANT ME TO SAY!

After that we both start to clam down, talking more then arguing.

Me: To me you will probably always be a lying player tho.

Yuki: I'll accept that.

We talk a little more to try to end it on neutral terms, but Yuki says someone is always going to hurt. Then we end all contact.