The Elements Of Love

✧.*CHAPTER 12- EDMUND✧.*

Authors note: for ed's part listen to k. by cigarettes after sex, and for leo's part listen to iris by the goo goo dolls (thank me later)

Perhaps everyone knows that there are bad and also good days. If we were always doing well, we wouldn't appreciate it. But I would gladly appreciate it. My better days are nowhere to be found.

I killed the relay, but after Leo and Kai lashed out at me if I felt the need to take the victory away from Amira for no reason, the day went downhill.  Because I am me, I also had a fight with them.

But to tell the truth, I'm glad we fought. All the people around me have been walking carefully around me since last year, because they don't dare to tell something a boy who killed his own mother. They don't have the courage to say anything to my face. That's also the reason for all the lies that get to me anyway.

To give at least a little peace of mind, I disappeared from the hotel and found a place on a bench at the beach. It was a bit stuck in the taller grass, so no one should see me from the hotel. Strategic.

He killed his own mother.

I've heard that here at least 10 times today.

During the year, there was countless gossip about me that did nothing to me at all. Not that this one was any different, but it actually was.

All the others were about my father or just about me and how I live. Alone, badly behaved, poor, without parents.

I was able to not give a damn about them, they were embarrassingly funny.

But this one also applied to my mother. She was the only person in the world I loved.

And when I love, I love like she does.

Strongly.

I take a puff from my cigarette and exhale the smoke up to the stars. Hopefully she's not looking at me right now. She wouldn't be proud. There's nothing to be proud of.

My thoughts are interrupted by the vibration of my mobile phone, which I have put on the wooden bench next to me. The brightness slowly but surely burns my eyes.

I'm alone in my room. come by ;)

An interesting offer, but I'm not in the mood. I'm a really bad person. First I yell at my best friends who keep me on board, and then I prefer depressive thoughts than having fun with Hedwig. I don't understand why she's still with me.

I throw my phone away.

About 20 meters from me, someone ran onto the beach. I flinched. The cigarette almost flew out of my hand. 

The person was slowly heading towards the water.

It was dark, so logically, I couldn't tell who it was. Whoever it is, I hope that they will leave as quickly as they came here.

Hopefully it's not a frustrated Hedwig . I can't handle physical contact anymore today. She hung onto me all day.

But when I saw that the person stopped and stared into the water as if it was the prettiest thing they had ever seen, I understood that they were not going to leave right away. That's why I started to get up slowly and quietly. I don't need to watch anyone here staring into the water. I'm not a pervert.

But when some small blue lights woke up in the water, I stopped and just watched them slowly move in the water. With each movement  they shone more and more. The wind started to blow and it caused the person's blond wavy hair to float in the air.

I said it was pitch dark, but I bet I know who it is. She looked like she was enjoying some private moment, just like me, but after all, she interrupted me.