The Elements Of Love

✧.*CHAPTER 4-EDMUND✧.*

When I said that I couldn't make it to the pendolino at all, I was exaggerating.

It was about 15 minutes late. I could sit at the cemetery for those 15 minutes instead of sitting at the station. The only positive thing is that I probably won't be around Alexander for a long time. For someone it would be hell, for me it was gift send from above.

As soon as I get in the pendolino, heads start to turn. I return their disgusted looks. I don't know what they have heard about me or anyone in my family, but judging by these looks, it wasn't anything good. I put on my untouchable facade and hope that Hedwig has booked seats.

I slowly began to get used to these looks. None of these people know what really happened, they have no right to look at me like that. At least I can show them with my neutral expression that I don't give a damn about them.

As I walk through the train, I pause for a few seconds at one of the coupe's, because all I hear from it is laughter.

A natural laugh that I haven't heard for a long time. The last time I laughed so much was with my mother. The laughter is going from a blue-eyed blonde with a low ponytail and she is on the verge of tears. I smile, but I immediately throw away the feeling, put on the inaccessible mask again and move on.

At the end of thetrain I can already see Hedwig. She waves at me like crazy, but when she sees that I don't wave back, she stops. Sometimes I don't understand what she sees in me. But then I remind myself that she doesn't really care about my feelings, it's enough that I'm a brunette with chocolate eyes and the answer to why she cares about me so much is born. She doesn't care about the inside. Hedwig looks only at my satisfactory looks.

"Hedvi-" I can't get any more out of myself and I'm in a hot embrace. But I return the favor. I haven't seen her for a really long time and I'm not that heartless. And when you date someone and spend private moments with them, they grow on you at least a little.

But I wouldn't exaggerate. It wasn't my choice to date her.

When we pull away from each other, I reach for her face, bend down and kiss her. She returns it intensively.

"You don't have to be eating your faces in front of us. Get a room." says my very good friend, Leo, instead of greeting me. When I hear his voice, I pull away from Hedwig and go to greet him. "He's right, Ed, but it's also nice to see you." says Hermine, Hedwig's older sister, out of nowhere. "Believe me, I didn't miss you aswell, Hermine." I tell her completely honestly. I don't really like her, but she doesn't like me either, so what. Hedwig gently nudges me with her shoulder, but I throw my gaze at her.

"Stop bullying everyone and sit down instead." says Leo and rolls his eyes.

I listen to him, don't say anything and sit by the window. Then I get caught up in a conversation with Hedwig and Leo about the holidays. I listen to them rather than talk, there weren't many nice experiences during my holidays. At least they enjoyed their time. It doesn't look like it, but these two are my closest people. And also the only ones I have. 

I almost forgot Kai. I hope I see him soon. That's the last close person I have. 

After a while, I get bored of the conversation, so I lean onto Hedwig, trying to take in the view from the window, but at the same time I'm distracted from my thinking about certain questions. I shake them off and focus only on the passing landscape outside and also on the perfume of Hedwig, who again overdid it with the smell. The smell tickles my nose unpleasantly and I try to suppress a sneeze. Successfully.

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In eternity I finally see that the climate has changed, and that means only one thing, we are approaching Arwen.